Let your light shine in the darkness

missing bali

2009-06-19T14:46:00.002+08:00

still having hangover of bali. missing bali. much. very much. time flies so quickly. exactly 1 wk ago, i'm preparing to go to the airport, excited. and now, here i am blogging bout it, 1 wk later. its a very nice n relaxing place. wish the trip can be longer. will go back again some time.

bali day 1-2

2009-06-16T21:02:00.003+08:00

came back from bali yesterday night. landed in spore at 640pm, ending our short 4 day trip. was looking forward to the trip with dear and time flew by so fast. we reached the airport at around 4pm on fri. checked in and shopped in transit before boarding our plane. flight was supposed to be at 725pm but it got re-timed to 8pm. when we checked in at 745pm, the plane was not even at the terminal yet. its been delayed another 30min. as a result, we reached our hotel near 12 midnight. our room was given a free upgrade to the ocean view room. as it was late, we slept once we reached the room. the next morning, we were greeted by the greatest view ever. we could see the ocean from the balcony. we washed up and quickly went for breakfast before taking the shuttle bus to dfs galleria at kutta where we shopped for 3hrs. it was a boring shopping center and we had a hard killing time. 2pm, we took the shuttle bus back to the hotel. i went for a short swim and dip in the pool before going for our spa treatment. the spa massage was very nice. so nice i fell aslp. after the spa, we went for dinner. had "flying gurame". fish was crispy and the asam soup was simply fantastic. it was so damn nice. after dinner, we went to the centre of kutta to shop. got to know from the guide mr lanus that where we went to in the morning was the outskirt of kutta. so we went there to shop, walked the entire length, eventually ending up at hard rock hotel. the hotel was nice, but not as nice as ours. before going back, we went for ice cream at this ice cream shop. had a nice banana split before going back to our hotel by taxi. reaching our hotel, dear soon zonked out while i watched the incredibles on cartoon network. yeap. our hotel had cable tv. after the cartoon ended, i zonked out too, ending day 2 of the awesome bali trip.

jig leaving

2009-06-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

just saw jig off at the airport 1.5 hours ago. its always a sad send-off. he's back for such a short time and gone for so long. 4 weeks flew by so quickly. still remembered the sun 3-4 wks before he came back when he called me. couldnt talk long so i called him back later but couldnt get thru. then the wkday bout 3 wks before he's back when i called him in america. was at taka at that nite, talking for about 20min or so on the phone. talked about what i studied in nie, psychology courses that are similar to what he studied in the states. and then 3 wks later, he is back. met him for the 1st time on the sat of 16 may at raffles city basement, after his trip to marina barriage for the singapore arts festival opening ceremony. the 2nd time was 1wk later on tue when we went to the illuma together to check out the place and then tat same thur at vivo where we watched the premier of the night at the museum 2. the following wk, met up for dinner at pizza hut after which he watched terminator n dear n i watched angel n demon. then it was this mon when he attended my rom, and now, he's on his way back to the states again. will be another yr before i get to see him again. 13 years of friendship. saw a quote on the bus just now: A friend is the best present you can give yourself. i had a very good present which i had for 13 years. n its so sad to see him leave before getting to see him again. take care jig. hopefully i will have a chance to go over in dec to drop a visit. keep in contact my friend.

happy

2009-06-09T12:16:00.002+08:00

had a very good slp yest. was a tiring day yest but totally enjoyed myself. the day passes so quickly. so very happy that my good pals in life are here to share the joy with me. chenghao, kanglun, jignesh, wenxiang, zhihao. even my nie friends, ahmad, brian and meiying gave their blessings too. really appreciate everything. friends who are there for me through good and bad times, friends who comforted me when i'm down, friends who shared my joy with me. somehow, the day passed so quickly. the 7 hours zoomed past in a flash n soon we have part. all good things will come to an end. how true. but what's important is i enjoyed their company and presence. we'll meet up again for sure. jig, if u are reading this, take care and see u when u're next back again. =)

new chapter in life

2009-06-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

today marks a new chapter of my life. happily married to dear today, bought our house yesterday. happy with my life right now. have my own car, my career, our house, my dear. dont know what else to say. very tired and sleepy so i tink i shall head for bed. nitez.

relaxing wkend

2009-05-31T23:25:00.003+08:00

had a relaxed wkend this wk. sch holidays have finally started. looking forward to this hols. went for spa on fri evening with dear. body massage, hot and cold jacuzzi, sauna n steam bath. the spa session was shiok. enjoyed it.

went to food expo on sat afternoon. love such food fares. and as usual, spent a lot there. spent almost $50 there yest. .then went to equinox at swissotel on sat nite. the view of spore at 70th level is amazing. orchard rd looks so different from 70 storeys above the ground. dear n i ordered 2 cocktails n a mocktail. sat there n drink n relax for 2.5hrs before leaving at ard 1120pm. how i wish every weekend can be as relaxing. sigh..

sianism

2009-05-22T12:20:00.003+08:00

sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian...........

feeling so damn super sian.. so many things to do on my to-do list. but no mood or energy or drive to do it. need to start serious training for my ippt soon. been running much more regularly for the past 3 weeks. supposed to run this morning. but woke up late n ended up not running. damn.. feeling guilty now. this sucks.. this feeling really is so shitty. arg.. do i have enough time to train? i hope so. have to be more determined. hols are coming soon so i guess i will have more time to train more regularly. but right now, i am feeling so SIAN!!! ahhhhhh. help.. its a fri but why am i feeling this way? do i have time tonight to go out? viewing flat tonight. arg. shall see how things turn out. have to go to sch soon. damn. this sucks. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

relaxing in orchard..

2009-05-14T00:17:00.003+08:00

finally.. i did what i wanted to do long long long long time ago but always do not have the time to. walk around in orchard, shop, relax, destress till late, way past 11. was at orchard on mon nite but didnt stay till late. tonight i really stayed till late, although not late enough as compared to the good old nus days when i took the last bus back to hall at 12 midnight. but tonight was good enough. robinsons was having a members sale again and was open till 1030pm. shopped there till it close. before that, i was shopping at cold storage at centrepoint, again till it closes at 10pm. from there went to robinsons. after robinsons closed at 1030, i started walking towards heeren. was tinking of going back but the stress took the better of me.. i need to destrss. badly... so instead of heading to the car, i headed towards cineleisure. being a wed nite, the place was closed relatively early. so i just went in and stayed there, looking at the place for a while before leaving towards taka square. its finally empty tonite. the audi fashion show took up the entire square on mon nite and i couldnt sit there and enjoy the night. tonight was different. the place is finally free. i sat at the edge of the fountain, watching ppl heading home. it was a windy night tonight. the sky was orangish red and cloudy. the leaves are swaying. it was a really beautiful night, just like how i had remembered it to be in the good old days. i just sat there, looked up at the trees, the sky and clouds. there was no moon tonight but it was still a beautiful sight. i must have been sitting there, staring at the sky for a full 15-20 min before i got up and walked to the centre of the square, right in front of the main enterance of ngee ann city. standing there in the middle of the square, in front of the huge building, i looked up at the sky again. i felt so small, so fragile. at that moment, i felt so at ease with the surroundings, the building, the wind, the sky. it was a wonderful wonderful feeling. felt so light and bouyant. felt no problems and stress. my mind was a complete and perfect cohesion with the beautiful orangish cloudy sky with the nice wind blowing on a quiet night. i could have stayed there the whole night but i cant. continued walking down the pavement after, towards wheelock place. the whole place will be so livened up with xmas deco in less than 6 months time. couldnt wait for xmas to come again. walking down to wheelock, looking at the huge icon that is gg to open soon, the huge outdoor tv outside shaw house, memories of the good old relaxed days came back again. fought to hold back emotions again, i crossed the road to shaw, took the underpass, came out from mariott, headed down towards heeren to the car. that ended a rare enjoyment that i yearned for in months.. when will be the next time that i get to enjoy this again? 3 wks time i hope.

good old days

2009-05-09T00:32:00.002+08:00

missing the good old days. damn hell how much i miss them. the days in nus. how i wish i can turn back time and return to those days as a student again. do not like working life 1 bit. not a single twiny weeny bit at all. feeling so damn burnt out again today. i thought its all over and i can finally take a short break, take my mind away from work, but walah, yest n today pop out 2 new assignments. there goes my wish of a short break, to regain my sanity and to prevent my burnt out further.

once again, i was in the lib till 7 plus pm just now, trying to finish up the new tasks. as i attempt doing so, the more tension i feel building up inside me. the lib used to be so crowed with people 2-3 weeks ago that its difficult to find an empty table. yet tonight, it was just me, a single living soul in the whole left wing of the lib. so eerily quiet and lonely. not that i am afraid of ghosts, but its the emptiness that is taking a nerve on my mind.

took dear's advice in the end and stopped doing everything and went ahead to town. boy, how i miss those days in nus when i can go to town almost 3 times a week. 3 times out of 5 in the weekdays. as i drove, i thought about those carefree times. drove down the exact route of 1 of the ways i used to take to go to town. bus service 106 along holland road. as i drove along this road, i thought of the days when i will take this bus to head to town. i did not deliberately take this route, but its so coincidentally coincident that pie was jammed from clementi ave 6 onwards so i had to exit there and go along commonwealth ave west, ending up taking the holland road route to town. like always, the feeling of being in town is so relaxing. the moment i turn into tanglin road, passing tanglin mall, which always have the snow avalanche and snow sessions during christmas, i felt so much better. instantly, i felt as if a huge rock has been lifted off me.

after i parked, i jus walked down the entire orchard road, from heeren to tangs, going down to the basement where all the household appliances and woks are sold. there are no wok demo tonight. can still rem how i used to watch the promoter demonstrate the wonders of the woks by demonstrating how to fry, bake, and make pop corn. that was how i know how to make caramel sweet popcorn at home. haha. from tangs basement, i took the orchard underpass to shaw house, going to isetan supermarket doing my favourite thing - shopping in supermarkets, looking at the many many and endless kinds of products on sale. looking at the prices, the fruits and veg, the ham and bacon, the juices and dairy products, the dry goods and can food etc. the list goes on and on. i could have spend the entire night there but i do not have the luxury of doing so anymore, unfortunately. i could have easily done so 1-2 years back, but not now. not anymore.

from isetan, i headed to taka, going down to the basement, shopping at cold storage. this is 1 of the 2 cold storage left in the orchard road region. used to have 3, but the building which used to be where the current og orchard is now has been torn down. the cold storage there has a unique layout. its at the basement, but the entire supermarket is in a circular shape. the enterance is on the left and the exit on the right. just imagine a horsehoe and you got the layout of that cold storage. anyway, this was during sec sch days, so now you know how long it has been. from taka, i went on to wisma atria, walking up to the 2nd level, exiting at the exit leading to the taxi stand. from there, i walked along the road, crossed the road to the bus stop. this was the bus stop where i always took one of the last bus from. 65 to vivo, changing to 10, 30 or 142 back to hall. or 106 to buona vista, changing 95 back to hall. as i stood there, waiting for no particular bus for almost 20 minutes, i thought of the nights just 1-2 years ago where i was waiting at the exact bus stop for the bus to take me back to hall everytime i came to town during a weekday. there is no chance for me to do the same thing or retake the same bus along the same route back to hall anymore. all i can do is reminiscence those wonderful days. there are still plenty for me to talk about but i do not have the time to do so. how i wish i have. maybe i had taken too many a breaks during my nus days. maybe that is the reason why i am feeling so lousy about working life, about not having enough breaks now. maybe, the reasons are plenty. whatever this maybe may be, 1 thing is for sure. i sure freaking miss the nus carefree hall and student life.

MAY DAY

2009-04-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

may day. or literally mayday!! this is the peak period of life in nie. lessons plans and assignments deadlines every week. struggling to complete them and finally, i can see the light from the other end of the tunnel- half the tunnel to be exact. today also happens to be the last lesson of physics II by mr ravi. had lots and lots of fun during the past 2 wks of microteaching by him. really enjoyed his lessons a lot. his lessons are always very lively, with jokes and all. the mood is light and not stressful at all. he will still be taking us physics III but i will definitely miss his lessons. he is a good lecturer. he is also prob gg to be the only lecturer whose lesson i will miss in nie. spore really need more physics teachers like him to revive the interest of physics in spore students.. alright. got to go. happy may day...

mobilization saturday

2009-04-26T20:01:00.002+08:00

was activated yest. in-pro at 1445 and out-pro at about 1620. was a nice time catching up with the rest of the specs. had an update of what everybody is doing now. many were "shocked" and "surprised" that i am getting married in june. had a lot of jokes while waiting to out-pro, talking about ippt, ict etc. went to ajisen at lot 1 for dinner and had 2nd round at crowne plaza at the airport at 8 plus at night till past midnight. had a really nice time catching up with army friends. too bad i had to defer for june ict this year because of practicum. would like so much to go for ict. miss my army friends. miss army times. haha. a break from all the work. oh well. guess have to wait till next yr before i next see the rest.

finding meaning

2009-04-21T21:12:00.002+08:00

feeling really jaded the couple of days. life is so very monotone and no meaning. going through the same things, same procedure day in day out, like a robot. waking up in the morning, going to school, doing assignments during free period, lunch, more lessons, end of lesson, doing more work, going home, continuing with work, then sleep and the whole cycle repeats. so what if i have finished my assignments? i cant seem to find a purpose in doing so, just going through motion. need to find something more fulfilling in life. i hope i can.

blog revived

2009-04-17T20:58:00.003+08:00

wow.. it's been a really long time since i last had an entry in this blog. created several blogs under this account but that is because of academic purpose. nie had been a hectic time the past 2 months. jan and feb was indeed a honeymoon but come march, it was a totally different story altogther. lots of assignments, plenty of lesson plans. lesson plans are the tedious ones. was asked in physics class today to think of an icon to represent us. i used a fast racing car as my icon. fast and furious, thats how my life has been. always on the fast track, seldom slowing down a bit. assignments in nie however seem to be faster and more furious than me though. everytime i finish 1, another came along. got to buck up i guess.

had plenty of remininscence these past few days, esp that of ns. i dont know why too. its a kinda weird feeling. being near to the area d, we could often hear live firing sound in nie. on tue, i heard something else. the sound of armour vehicles. though i was quite certain that it was the sound of armour vehicles, i am not 100% sure. after class, on the way down to the carpark, being at level 4, i caught the sight of bv206 and m113s across the road in the training area. i was right. everytime i heard the song "the longly shepherd" when i was driving, the thought of the 1st time i heard that song stirred emotions in me. wallaby. it was in wallaby, during our 1st r&r that we watched "kill bill" in rockhamptom. although i do miss the r&r, i miss the outfield times slightly more i guess. the feeling of standing high on the cupola, driving at a speed higher than that achievable in spore, the feeling of driving across the australian terrain with sand and dust flying all around, turning everybody into a human "muah chee", makes me miss wallaby and want to go back there again. there will be plenty and plenty to talk about but unfortunately, i do not have the luxury of time to do so. got to rush my lesson plan as i wait for jen in sim now.

stayed in nie till 730pm just now to do my assignments. steping out of the lib, out into the fading light, i got a feeling that i had not gotten for years. the at-peace feeling with nature, of studying in this kind of environment. the last time i had this feeling was in nus, during one of the sem when i was studying for exams in campus till night time. compared to nie, nus is 100 times much less stressful. i can afford to go out to town, relax, shop etc every night after dinner in hall, hanging out in orchard till late at night. miss the fri nites when i will hang out till late, going to plaza sing, going to carrefour and buying drinks, juices, fruits, choc etc back to hall. the feeling came back to me on wed nite as i went there with jen after our movie, one of the rare treats i have these days. back in nus days, i will take the last bus back to hall, bathe and sleep or go for supper at fong seng. if i had chosen not to go out, there will be hall activities, or i will be watching tv on my laptop in my room, listening to songs etc. life is relaxed and carefree. i can do what i want, go where i want. this is no longer so now. studying is really way much better than working. and as i drove out of nie just now, the smell of the trees and plants when i wind down my windows again brought back memories of ns days. going to miss my ict this june again, because of practicum. wish i could go back for ict but i cant. this really sucks. ict will be such a good break from nie.

last thing to update, i will be getting married in june. looking forward to the rom. something to keep me perserving, to keep me going, fast and furious....

merry christmas 2008

2008-12-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

its christmas today. 1st of all, merry christmas to all. went for countdown as usual yesterday. went to CCIS this afternoon. did not stay for concert. had a christmas dinner at jen's house. went to make booking for my car in the morning. hope that the loan goes through and i will have my 1st car by next month. best christmas present ever. xmas 2008 is ending pretty soon. another 365 days to the next one. 364 to the next countdown. till then, cya ppl. merry xmas n happy new year.

Xmas Cuties

2008-11-16T21:08:00.007+08:00

these are some cute xmas items, gifts and souvenirs on sale this year. in response to the "speedy time" post last year, time indeed flies. christmas is coming again. the light up in orchard was started yesterday. from the photos in the papers today, the light up looks beautiful.. prob going there to take photos and videos on tue night. looking forward to it. ho ho ho. merry christmas to one and all..

hamster

2008-11-15T08:32:00.003+08:00

blackie was bitten to death last night. it was still so young. just 3 months and its gone. feeling rather sad and missing it now. its cute little face with its big and black shinning eyes, its little mouth and tiny tiny paws. its soft body and fur while stroking its back and head. having a sense of something missing now that its gone. saw it breath its last heavily, take a sip of a drop of water before finally stop moving for the last time, and its body and paws turning rigid. really missing the look of its face when its looking at you. that kind of little cuteness.. sigh.. this is a feeling of sadness that cant be expressed out. now i understand y some people are so sad when their pet dog or cat or just any pet dies. the relationship built up is just like that between human and the loss can be very very terrible. bye blackie.. miss you.. if only you are still around.. sigh..

taka's eco green tree

2008-11-07T11:16:00.006+08:00

16m tall, 100000 LED, 40 solar panels, and 90% energy saving. that's what the straits times reported of this year's taka's xmas tree. early birds are taking photos with the tree which lit up yesterday. i was there the day before, and the day day before. guess that made me an early early bird. which i always am. enjoy the beautiful tree..

chrismas scene

2008-11-06T21:43:00.010+08:00

Christmas Time

2008-11-04T19:12:00.002+08:00

ok. the title says it all. have not blogged for a long time and the 1st entry after such a long time is none other than my facourite CHRISTMAS!! yeap. its season time again. ho ho ho. christmas deco are up in malls around the island. orchard is beginning to transform into a huge candyland, the theme this year. candies, lollipop, rainbow lollipop can be seen hanging across the road and on the trees. streetlamps are turning into huge candycanes. the arc gateway at the entrance of orchard road at shaw and mariott hotel junction is getting built. taka's tree, paragon's tree, plaza sing's tree and raffles city's trees are up. og orchard has already hung up its deco and lighted up its chasing lights. light up of the lights and deco should be happening in 2-3 weeks time i suppose. in paragon, metro has already set up a mini christmas trim shop selling trees and ornaments. robinsons and taka has yet to set up their trim shop, but when they do, its gonna be a wala big christmas shopping time and paradise again. going to do what i have been doing all these years - taking lots of pictures and videos every fri night when the light up has begun, taking pictures of the deco of every shop and mall and supermarkets and roads and everywhere, any night of the week, whenever i am out. whoohoo.. boy. do i love christmas.. merry christmas people.. will be blogging more, with pictures of this christmas of course.. =)

TK

2008-09-19T19:39:00.002+08:00

its the end of wk 2 in tk. been fun and enjoyable so far. mentor teachers are caring and helpful. been looking forward to going to sch everyday. totally different from the feeling i was having last mon. anxious, scared, nervous. haven really taught yet. not sure how it will be. at least for now, i am enjoying myself. =)

mooncake fest

2008-09-04T09:11:00.002+08:00

its the mooncake festival again. taka square is finally having the mooncake festival fair. restaurants and hotels display their mooncakes for sampling and sale. mooncakes this year are much more expensive than last year. but there are quite a few new flavours too. bought from 3 stalls so far, costing me $100. =x fare will be on till next sun, 14 sept. there will definitely be super big discounts and promotions on the last day of the fair as the promoters try to clear their stock. will go next sun evening and grab those fantastic offers. haha. yummy mooncakes. after this mooncake fair, the next major event/fair to look forward to and wait for will be the christmas trimshop cum toy fair. my most favourite fair of all. 1 of my most favourite festival of the year too. christmas. ho ho ho.. haha..

divert a bit, suntec is having another food fair again. i love food fairs.. lots of yummy food. haha. i love food. i love to eat.. long live good food..

august update

2008-08-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

august has been quite normal. went for make up high key ict last week. was a 1 wk prep for 6 div commander coc parade. it was a very easy and slack high key. reported to gedong last mon at 10am, did nothing at all in the office except reading magazines and left at 3pm. similar thing happened on tue. went down to mandai hill camp to liase with all the vehicles from the various camps. left at 4plus. wed was the worst. after the run in gedong at 9am, i just sat there and rot all the way till 3plus when we went to mandai hill camp. thur, fri was the rehearsal. even so, there are plenty of breaks. sat morning was the actual rehearsal. sun came and i went for the ahm 1okm run. was raining a lot the past few days and the field was muddy as a result. and what happens? my new running shoes are stained with mud!! arg.. i was so pissed.

went for the spf psychologist talk this morning. was an interesting one. 2hr session. but it was fun no doubt. still couldnt make up my mind whether to join moe or to join spf. sigh.. headache..

oh, and mooncake festival is coming!! all around the malls in singapore, you can see restaurants and hotels selling mooncakes. taka's mooncake festival fare will open on thur 28 aug. bought a box of white lotus paste double yolk mooncakes from dong hai restaurant today at $33. quite cheap i will say. but thats because of the offer. without offer, the price is $45!! expensive!! looking forward to the fare on thur.. so many nice and interesting mooncakes to choose from and sample before buying. there's chinese mooncakes and western mooncakes. western mooncakes meaning there is no lotus or dao sha or those traditional paste in the mooncake. instead, mousse is used as the filling. coffee flavour, mango flavour, oreo flavour. interesting indeed. fare in parkway is alread open today i think. was there just now. compared to taka's fair, its a far cry. no harm looking at it anyway, right? afterall, its the mooncake festival coming soon. yummy yummy mooncakes.. slurp..

.....................

2008-08-13T09:53:00.002+08:00

been 4 wks since the genting trip. so happy and in joyous mood 4 wks ago. 4wks later now, who would have known that i will be feeling sad and no way near the same feelings 4 wks ago. only if i can go back to 4 wks ago and relive those few days again and again..

still missing the trip

2008-07-31T10:39:00.002+08:00

been 2 wks.. 2 wks ago, 336 hrs ago, at this time now, we're at chin swee temple. cooling, nice scenery, shiok wind. still miss the place. still wish i am there now, relaxing. its ok.. dec will come soon. will be back there again in bout 4 months time.. =)

missing genting..

2008-07-23T09:58:00.002+08:00

woke up with a tingling feeling at 93oam today. woke up much earlier in the morning at 615am, time that i met dear in the cab exactly 1 wk ago. time pass so very quickly. at this time now 1 wk ago, we were on the coach on the way to genting after leaving yong peng at 930am. i should be watching DOA on the coach now, which is about to end. somehow, this 1 wk seems to pass much much faster than all the other 1 wk previously. its not so much of genting and the place that i miss. i go there every 6 months. its the trip there with dear that i miss so much. shopping around first world plaza, looking around in the casino, watching movies, eating yummy food, bowling, playing games at the indoor theme park, sight seeing and riding the rides at the outdoor theme park. how i wish last week can just repeat itself again and again and never end. sigh. i will be back there with dear again. just like how i said i will be back there again everytime i left genting.

88 hours with dear

2008-07-21T09:47:00.011+08:00

it has been the most wonderful 88 hours spent with dear last week. patiently counting down to the day since 1.5 months ago, the day finally arrived, and in a blink of an eye, gone.

monday 14 july
time seems to be passing by slowing exactly 1 wk ago on monday. went to police hq to submit my documents in the morning, before heading down to pasir ris to meet dear for lunch at whitesands where we had kfc. headed down for tuition after lunch, while waiting for the day to pass all the time. tutition ended at 10pm and decided to have macs for dinner. so there i am, buying macs, getting the olympics collectible glass and that marked the end of monday. 1 day down and 1 more day to our long awaited for trip.

tuesday 15 july
dear had a telecommunications course at midlink plaza. met her and her colleagues during lunch. same thing again, after lunch, i started heading down for tuition after shopping around. halfway through her course, got an sms from her saying that her contact lens broke in her eye and is stuck. got a shock and good thing she managed to get it out. so there she goes, continuing her course while for me, time will pass even much slower today. 2 locations, with the last one being a whole 3 hours. was totally brain-dead after class ended at 10pm. cant wait to go home and wait for morning to arrive. though the day can be considered to have ended, morning still seems so far away. cooked noodles for dinner, watching national geographic channel and discovery channel while eating. was supposed to slp early but i couldnt slp. ended up watching air crash investigations on national geographic channel till 2am before heading to bed. then again, couldnt have a proper slp. kept waking up halfway throughout my 3hrs slp.

wednesday 16 july
the day has finally arrived. couldnt slp the whole night and woke up at 5am where i turned and tossed around till 530am. getting out, called dear and before washing up. finished preparing at 6am, waiting for dear to call. call arrived at 6.10am and met her at 6.15am, the start of our 88 hours together. cab ride to golden mile was fast, arriving at 6.25am. checked in, waited for coach to arrive. left golden mile slightly before 7am. journey to genting was fast and comfortable. coach was a 18-seater first class coach, with personal entertainment system and we reached genting at 1pm, 2 hrs faster than usual. went straight ahead to purchase movie tickets first before checking in to our hotel. haha.. kiasu-ism being displayed. checked in to our room, 13346, after getting the tickets, and we went shopping around and taking a look around the casino. halfway inside the casino, dear discovered that her watch was missing. i thought that she dropped it but she said she did not wear it when we came out of the hotel room. went back to the room to see if it was there and luckily, it was there. continued to shop around after that before taking the genting skyway cable car down to gohtong jaya where we had dinner. dinner was great. had black pepper prawns, claypot tofu and live steamed "soon hock" fish. both of us had never eaten so much fish in a single meal before. a whole 1.1 kg of fish, finished up just by the 2 of us. after dinner, we went back up again by cable car, and went to have baskin robbins ice cream near our hotel. weather got very very cold and misty, and because of the ice cream, i was shivering and my teeth was chattering very loud. went back to the room and hid under the blanket for a while. went back out again after feeling warmer. shopped around first world plaza and took the venice gondola before going for our 1st movie. hancock. show was nice.. will not talk about it here. went to the casino to take a look around after the show before going back to our room. with that, the 1st day has ended.

taking the coach at 6.55am. here we goooooooooooo.....

7.33am. our coach at tuas checkpoint.
11.33am. arriving at outskirts of kl for toilet break before beginning the journey up to genting highlands... we are early!!

2.45pm. dear outside our room, 13346.

4.52pm. taking genting skyway cable car down for dinner.

6.46pm cable car ride up after dinner.

7.10pm. baskin robbins ice cream after dinner. yummy.

9.08pm. shopping at first world plaza with dear.

venice gondola ride at 9.55pm.

waiting for our movie, 10.02pm.

thursday 17 july
wanted to wake up at 6.30am to have breakfast but ended up waking up at about 7.30am instead. washing up quickly, we went for breakfast soon after. went to good friends restaurant, aka, hao you ji, in chinese, for dim sum breakfast. the dim sum was excellent. had a full and yummy breakfast. so full that we had a bit of difficulty walking. after breakfast, we went to the cinema to buy tickets for the dark knight. kiasu again. show was at 10.15pm but we bought the tickets at 9.30am, a whole 12 hrs before. haha.. oh well.. who cares right.. after getting the tix, we took the shuttle bus ride down to chin swee temple. view and scenery was beautiful there. hanged out there for an hour, before taking the shuttle bus back up theme park where we took the antique car which dear drove. took the bumper boat, similar to the bumper car, except that its a boat instead of a car. dear and i got wet in the bumper boat ride and we had to wash up after that.. but it was fun though. our last ride was the train, which was soooooo very very slow. the ride around the whole theme park on that train lasted about 15 minutes. with the end of that train ride, we went back to the hotel to wash up before going for dinner at hao you ji restaurant again. dinner was ok but not up to expectations for dear. both of us had homemade water chestnut cum sugarcane drink which actually was quite nice. went to play arcade for a short while before we went for our movie. played RM20 of games. played the mario racing game and the basketball game, then went back to the room to get our popcorn before going for the show. the dark knight was excellent. will not talk bout it here. after the show, we headed straight to the casino. played jackpot for a while but luck was not on our side tonight. lost RM30 on jackpot. tired also, we went back to our room to slp. witagain at 11.15am. went to the outdoor theme park where we wanted to take the flying coaster. it was still closed so we decided to go to the outdoor theme park first instead. our 1st stop, the go kart. we queued for almost 45min before it was our turn to drive the kart. 45mins queue for a 5min drive. but it was fun so it was worth the wait. next stop was the super tobbogan.. dear went 1st, i behind her. again, the queue was long, but not as long as the go kart. ride was over in a minute. our 3rd ride was the carousel. dear and i each sat on a horse. a bit too old but who cares what others think as long we enjoyed ourselves. next ride was the spinner. dear was afraid in the beginning but soon got used to it during the ride. it was very exciting and fun, screaming and whoo-ing while being spun around. we got off feeling a bit dizzy after the ride has ended but it was fun. took the "cyclone" roller coaster next. no 360 degree turns, just a mild roller coaster. it was my 1st roller coaster ride and i took it with dear beside me. =) when the cyclone coaster ride ended, we went boating together. boating at the top of the mountain with dear. the flying coaster was the next ride after we finished boating. that is the best ride in the entire theme park. the most fun and exciting ride of all. dear and i were just screaming, laughing and whoo-ing throughout the 2 minutes or so ride. with the end of the flying coaster ride, all the exciting rides have ended. the rides we took after that were all family rides. went to the dinoland, took the pirate train, which was a total waste of time because it was sooooo dark that we cant see anything. went for the mad space lab ride too. wanted to take the rolling thunder mine train ride but it was closed due to heavy mist. went for the antique car but the queue was too long, so we went to first world plaza for bowling. prob too tired, so both of us didnt bowl well. dear and i each played 2 games, before heading back to theh that, our 2nd and last night in genting has ended.

9.01am. after our dim sum breakfast at hao you ji restaurant.

9.37am. sight seeing outside our hotel before going to chin swee temple.

10.49am. chin swee temple with dear..

1.07pm. at the outdoor theme park with dear.

1.31pm, on the carousel.. overgrown kids..

2.05pm. boating with dear.

3.09pm, the flying coaster in the background after we finished the ride.

6.02pm. bumper boat!!

6.26pm, lazy train ride around the theme park.

friday 18 july
woke up at about 7.30am again and washed up, before going for breakfast at the good friends express restaurant. dear had char siew wanton noodles with orange juice while i had char siew sui jiao noodles with mango juice. paid only RM1.20 for breakfast because i had "traded" my worldcard points for the noodles. right after breakfast, we went to the arcade again. this time, we bought RM30 of credits. as we went to play the basketball game, we found out that the machine we went to had 17 credits left in it. some kind souls had accidentally deducted the credits but left without paying. so there we are, playing 5 free games of basketball. i "cheated", crawling onto the platform and simply dropped the ball into the basket instead of throwing it in. only dear threw the ball in, playing the proper way. we won a total of 664 tickets. changed a mug, a pair of bookmarks, a namecard holder and a whistle. told dear that we are lucky today. went to the casino, put in RM20 into a jackpot machine. played 9 lines at 3 credits per line. the very 1st button dear pressed, we won a special dove feature. we just sat there, watching the machine roll and increase our winnings. won a total of RM110 with that very 1st press. took the winnings and left, making a net profit of RM40 overall. leaving the casino, we went to first world plaza to check out the pizza hut outlet at about 11am. walked by the downslope roadside path since it was very cold and misty. was so cold that my hands were freezing. was told it will take about 20 minutes so we went back to the room with our winnings and prizes in the arcade. packed up and checked out and reluctantly headed to pizza hut for our lunch. mist was so thick that the seats and tables were all wet from the condensation of the mist. took a value meal for 2 person and waited almost 40 minutes for our pizza because the staff had forgotten where they placed our orders. if i had not pestered the manager angrily, our pizza may not even arrive. what great service. finished our pizza and went for our baskin robbins ice cream again, this time at first world plaza where we had 2 3-scoops sundae. baskin robbins really rocks. ice cream was shiok. haha.. finishing our ice cream, we went to the lobby of first world plaza where we took a cab down to berjaya times square for RM85. left genting at about 2.25pm and arrived at berjaya times square at around 3.35pm. checked in quickly to our room, A2008 and went shopping at the shopping centre in berjaya times square itself. the room was huge and very comfortable. the shopping mall was huuuuuuuuuge, with a total of 10 levels and 2 basements. the shops were high class, with branded brands like chanel. pretty much like malls in singapore, there is cold storage, best, cinema, and all kind of fashion shops. bought tickets for the show journey to the centre of the earth, starring brendan fraser. however, shops were repeated from level 3 onwards and we got bored and tired of shopping there. there is even a theme park in the mall, claimed to be the largest indoor theme park in malaysia. roller coaster was long and scary. at 7.30pm, dear and i decided that we had enough of shopping and we had for dinner at a restaurant called uncle duck. had steamboat there. dear had the seafood set while i had the grouper fish set. the food was good and yummy. we even had dessert. dear had mango sago with grapefruit while i had mango sago. wanted to go opposite to shop for a while but we were tired and so went back to the room for a rest. i dozed of and dear had a hard time waking me up. haha. show was at 12.15am and ended at 2am. went straight back to the room after the show ended and we knocked out once we hit the bed.

saturday 19 july
wanted to wake up at 630am for breakfast. again, we couldnt wake up in time. woke up at 730am and after washing up, went for breakfast at the big apple restaurant for our buffet breakfast. breakfast was ok. the waiter was very friendly and it was a good meal. took the monorail at imbi station and alighted at bukit nanas. walked to the lrt at dang wangi and took it to the station at klcc. dear applied for the tourist priviledge card upon reaching there and we asked for directions to the skybridge visit. by the time we reached the ticketing counter for the skybridge visit at 935am, the tickets have all run out. a bit disappointed, we went shopping at klcc shopping centre. this time round, the mall was much nicer than berjaya times square. there was vincci, branded brands again, non branded brands like crumpler and even A&W. dear had wanted to buy a crumpler bag but there are no other colours left except red. disappointed, we left and continued shopping till 11.25am where we went to A&W. ordered a large root beer float with 2 scoops of ice cream and a double scoop ice cream waffle. was a real yummy meal. there is no more A&W in spore and both of us missed it so much. finally got a chance to eat it again. yummy. after eating, we took a cab back to our hotel. cab fares are really cheap in kl. the entire journey back only cost us RM4.10, cheaper than all the monorail and lrt rides which we took. reached our hotel at 12.03pm and our cardkey has already been deactivated. having no choice, we had to go to the reception to reactivate our cardkey. key activated, we went back to pack and checked out at 1235pm. got our deposit of RM100 back, deposited our luggage at the bell counter and went to level 3 to purchase our couple polo shirt. done, we went opposite to shop for about 30 minutes or so. went back to the mall at 1.55pm and had lunch at a cafe called gasoline. food was not bad. waiting time was relatively short. finished our lunch at 2.25pm, went to cold storage to buy a bottle of chewing gum, before heading back to the hotel lobby to collect our luggage and check in at the coach counter. coach was already here so we boarded immediately and reluctantly began our journey back to singapore. coach was not as comfortable as it should have been. dear got a little giddy. good thing she felt better after the toilet break midway through the journey. journey was fast, and we reached tuas checkpoint at 8pm. reached golden mile at 8.40pm, where we went to lodge a complain for the lousy coach. took a cab home after that, where i unpacked and went for dinner at the hawker centre with dear. had wanton noodles for dinner and sent dear home after that. at 10.15pm, dear reached home, and i bid goodbye to her, 88 hours after i met her on wednesday morning.

till now, i am still missing the trip. my dream of going to genting with the girl i love has finally been realised, after 5 or so years. was really a wonderful wonderful and beautiful trip with dear. felt so sad and reluctant to end the trip but all good things have to come to an end. what will not end is my feelings for dear, the memories we shared in this 88 hours and that this will not be our only trip. looking forward to the next trip with her. love you dear.. =)

time flies

2008-07-09T11:21:00.001+08:00

time flies.. been a wk since we had live firing during ict. at this time last wk, we had just finished range and are on the way back to camp. and now here i am writing this entry. this time now next wk, i will be be nice cooling genting. yeap. i'm going back there again. my 1st trip there this year. alrite. i'm off to bed. nitez...

ICT

2008-07-05T09:11:00.002+08:00

came back from 3rd ict yest. was a great and fun 5 days. meet up with all my specs again. chenghao n edwin are back as ps and pc respectively. haha. and best things is we have 3 pc. lta larry, lta quek and lta edwin tat totally rocks man.. enjoyed myself in ict.. missed the high key last year so have to make it up 1 way or another. next ict will be another low key ict, preparing for ATEC. looking forward to next ict.. sound crazy and insane but i really did enjoy ict. meeting up with old friends, gg out and do shitty things, chiong sua, getting dirty and tired, being the ps runner, as always. but still, really enjoyed everything. this ict was quite relaxed anyway. main thing for this ict was range. no drawing out of vehicles and ovm, signals and optics and that sure makes life way much easier. my specs and i got marksman, so tats an additional $200 for each of us while i got gold for ippt and tats $400. good money isnt it? sept will most prob meet up again for mobilisation. tat wont be as fun as ict though but its another chance for all to meet up again.. go mortar platoon.. =)

missing u

2008-07-01T20:42:00.007+08:00

dear..surprise!!! hee..actually not really a surprise also since i asked for ur password just a few mins ago =x juz wanna say i'm missing u so badly now =( make sure u come back in one piece on fri nite! can't wait to see u again..muakz!

loving u always,
your silly gal =)

jig jig jig.....

2008-06-09T01:50:00.002+08:00

jig is back and gone.. he's gone back to the states again. been 3 days since he left spore. made a new fren this time he came back. chris. nice guy. tall.. humourous.. and most impt of all, he shared the same view as me bout jig. haha.. sorry jig, if u are reading this.. no offense intended. u know that dont u, milo monster? haha.. anyway, hope he n chris enjoyed themselves. jen n i def enjoyed ourselves very much last tue. love u dear. miss u jig n chris. cya next yr, jig.. take care my fren. =)

joshi and family

2008-05-18T22:05:00.002+08:00

today was the last day with sneha. time flies. been more than a yr since i've been helping her. joshi n family had been treating me well, been very very nice the past 1 yr. they'll be flying to the states on 1 july for their new life. was a touching farewell today. wrote me a touching card. cant send them off on 1 july cos of in camp training. sigh. can only wish them all the best.

welcome back

2008-05-08T22:44:00.002+08:00

as the title says it, i'm welcoming 2 of my very good friends back from abroad. jignesh came back on mon. its not permanently. he's leaving in a month's time. but at least i can to see him and catch up with him again. known him since sec 1. many funny n memorable incidents along the way. going to be another few more years before he finish his studies. at that time, not sure if he is going to come back to spore for good for work overseas. miss him when he's gone. all his crap and jokes, all his actions which makes one cant stand him at times, the humour way of course. he's a good friend and a great pal to have, a friend i will treasure for life...
next up is chenghao, my ns platoon sergeant. as i type, he is on the way to the airport now. will see him on sat, the way of our csm's wedding dinner. he's coming back for good. dont know if he will be able to join us back in 428sar. hopefully he can. but if he cant, we can still meet up now that he is back.
welcome back my friends. =)

tired

2008-05-02T08:15:00.004+08:00

this will just be a short post after a long time of no updates. finished my last exam in nus on mon. 1 last final fyp presentation to go before i am done with all academic stuff in nus. did not have extreme happiness and excitment feeling when the "time's up. please stop writing." announcement was made on mon. feeling i had was sad. sad because instead of going out to celebrate, i had to go to my grandmother's funeral wake. she had a long and good life. 85 years of age and a great grandmother. she was laid to rest yesterday. missed her pretty much. esp my childhood days when we used to go to her house every sunday. now she's gone to a better place. will miss you ah ma. rest in peace.

fyp

2008-04-02T20:18:00.002+08:00

darn fyp. freaking fyp. screwed fyp. i hate this fyp. arg.. never ending.. torture extended. pain deepened. wont it ever end? will it ever stop? sooooooooo very pissed with this fyp. the darn wind tunnel is cursed... i swear it so is... arg.. hotwire breaking at 6pm everyday. what the hell. on the verge of giving up. i want to stop, stop, STOP... can i? aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh... to hell with the darn wind tunnel...... extremely pissed pissed pissed PISSED!!!

Fei Yue Annual Dinner 2008

2008-03-29T01:34:00.002+08:00

fei yue had its annual dinner tonight. this yr its held at kia hiang restaurant at bukit merah. the food was not bad. healthy dishes. even won 9th prize in the lucky draw. this yr was extra fun not because of the food or the prize. its the whole feeling, the atmosphere there. volunteers and staff alike, went on stage to perform and sing songs from each era, the 60s, 70s, 80s and 90s. the 90s was represented by volunteers from the youth sector. zhou hua jian's peng you was sung. the ra-ra atmosphere was simply fantastic. the whole restaurant was just singing along, waving their hands, clapping their hands. beautiful songs by feng fei fei and liu wen zheng from the 70s and 80s were performed. the feeling is just great, simply wonderful. attended many such dinners very often, on average, once every month or every 2 months. haha. yeap i socialise a lot. anyway, tats not the point here. volunteers and staff at fei yue are indeed a great bunch of people, esp the youth sector. enjoyed myself totally everytime with fei yue. from the gathering to the volunteer appreciation bbq to the annual dinner. really enjoyed volunteering with fei yue. never regretted this decision. liked the organisation, liked the staff and volunteers, liked my friends i made there. thanks fei yue for a truly memorable and enjoyable night. =)

Armour Road Relay 2008

2008-03-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

woah.. been almost a month since i last blogged.. been very tied down by fyp. sigh. still no progress done. God help me.
went for armour road relay(arr) today. was running for 54 SAB. total of 12 runners and we won 2nd place in the NS brigade category. woo hoo.. haha. considering that we have not trained at all, and that i have not run for quite some time, its quite an achievement i will say. won a medal. my 1st medal related to the army. not bad. been a nice experience. last arr i run in was during the active unit days in 40 SAR. nice feeling going back to sungei gedong again. met my mcc 2IC, warrant cheng. had a nice short chat with him. this trip back to sungei gedong for arr brought back many memories of my school of armour (soa) days. the vehicle shed, the cookhouse, the soc ground and grass patch where we did our mortar drills, the hq armour parade square where we had the armour anniversary parade on 2004, the only chance i got to wear the number 1. the smell of the grease and lubricant oils like sae 10 and sae 40. many changes had taken place though. bunks are "renovated". mcc is no longer in soa. guess changes are part and parcel of life, even in the saf. but 1 thing i think is true, and that is: Once Armour Always Armour. yeap..
Swift and Decisive we shall be..
now that arr is over, what's next? cobra challenge? am i ready for it? or am i even up for it? hmm.. we shall see..
hip hip hooray 54 SAB!!! hip hip hooray!!

World Scout Day

2008-02-22T23:43:00.002+08:00

its 22 feb today. founder's day. our founder, lord BP's birthday. was originally called founder's day. now its been changed to world scout day. oh well, it still means the same thing. be prepared for anything, so must be prepared for a name change. haha. well, pretty normal day today too i suppose. with the exception that i went for hq's founder's day dinner at CDANS. the food was quite good. guilin restaurant at CDANS. atmosphere was alright. a bit too cold for comfort though. was shivering. or maybe its just me. anyway, it was a nice dinner function. mr teo ser luck was the GOH too.. just right after we won the bid for youth olympics 2010 yest. haha.. was super cool. excited for spore too.. go spore.. anyway, the scout association, aka ssa, is gonna bid for the 2015 world scout jamboree this year too. we lost the previous bid. hopefully we can win this time. then it will be a double celebration i suppose. hosting the world jamboree on spore's 50th year of independence. significant year indeed. =) alright. shall end off here.. this blog getting stagnant also. only update when there are major or significant things to talk about. sorry to all my readers. been busy, super busy with fyp and reports lately, so do not have the time to blog. will do so regularly again after the crazy period is over. alrite. here off i go. before i do. here's to all scouts and guides out there, both in spore and around the world:

Happy World Scout Day and Thinking Day. !!!!!BE PREPARED!!!!!

time..

2008-02-15T13:01:00.002+08:00

ok. i shall keep this short and quick. time is not on my side.. as always. always gone in a flash.. chinese new year is over for 1 wk. v day is over yest. though cny this yr is a whopping 5 day holiday, including wed, it still seems so short. time flies when 1 is having fun. how very true. was 1 of the best cny ever. flew past so quickly. never really had enough fun. or rather, not enough time to enjoy and have more fun. looking forward to cny next yr. as i always did.. xmas and cny..
v day was great yest, with dear. made her feel special yest, the envy of many. =) hope you enjoyed urself as much as i did. 6hrs flew by even before i know it. well, at least it was a nice time. =)
happy and fun times are over, time to rush for my projects. a mad mad rush for time. fyp and review projects. a project-sem indeed. ok.. got to go. back to the seemingly never ending reports. arg....

panic

2008-01-25T14:22:00.001+08:00

so very stressed now. so many reports due soon. fyp ending on 31 march. 2 reports deadline 31 march. thesis due mid april. 1st report is halfway done only. 2nd one is untouched. fyp progress is super slow. only getting data tomorrow. hopefully the set of results taken tomorrow will be correct. i feel so dead. so many things to do. so little time. why am i spending time here, updating this entry? i dont know. i am brain drained. been struggling with the submarine report. cant think of how to rephrase the information. i am literally drowning. will any submarines be able to save me? skin friction report? all i can say is there is definitely be lots and lots of friction opposing my progress. i am in panic now. i am physically and mentally drained and stressed. add on to other non-academic problems. at the verge of everything now.. help... panic mode alarm has sounded..

5 months of labour

2008-01-18T14:14:00.000+08:00

after 5 months of hard, banga work (sorry, no offence), the setup is finally done. the spires are mounted, the planks mounted, the roughness fetch done. the roughness fetch, which are done by painstakingly drawing lines and then gluing the cubes on the plywood 1 by 1 looks so beautiful on the wind tunnel floor. after all the delay.. the computer crashing, the manometer not working and being inaccurate. real data can finally be collected.. whoo hoo.. not much time left. hopefully everything runs properly and smoothly this time.. =)

front view of spires

side view of spires

front view of spires and roughness fetch

full stretch of roughness fetch.. guess the number of cubes.. haha..

cubes making up the roughness fetch.

another view of the cubes.

full roughness fetch with spires again.

roughness fetch to the turntable view.

view of wind tunnel near the turntable.

turntable. even the plastic supports at the sides have to be hand-made...

25th bday

2008-01-12T01:44:00.000+08:00

my 25th birthday has passed. its the best birthday i had ever had. dear spent the day with me, with a wonderful gift and dinner. and throughout the day, birthday wishes came pouring in, online and sms. dun think i had so many well wishes before.. cant really remember also.. important is, this is a really wonderful year and birthday. thanks for the wonderful day dear. the gift, the card, the dinner and most importantly, the company. love the card a lot. =)

great start to 2008, great start to bday

2008-01-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

the title says it all.. i am so very very happy and excited now. so far it has been a great start to 2008. dear and i are together. and now, minutes before my bday, i saw the email, asking me to go for a 2nd interview. that is such a great news. i managed to get thru the 1st round! hope i can thru the 2nd round too.. i am so happy now that i do not know what else to say.. totally lost for words.. dear sang me a song and will be spending the day with me. just 10 min and i received 6 bday wishes. what more can i ask for. this is gonna be my best bday ever. =) really thankful to the Lord for all the good things that have been happening to me so far. thank you Lord.. thank you.. =D

dreams come true

2008-01-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

dreams do come true after all.. mine are coming true 1 by 1. had such a wonderful night tonight with my dear. if u r reading this dear, wanna tell u how happy i am tonight. my dreams are coming true and you are the reason why this is so. now, i have found new meaning n purpose in life and that is you. really glad that u r here to make my dreams come true.. thanks dear.. dun have to take half day leave next wk k. dun waste ur leave. being able to spend the evening with u is alrdy the best bday i can ever have.. =) u are alrdy the best new year gift i can have n i am so thankful for that.. love ya dear.. =D

speedy time

2007-12-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

how time flies. been 1 wk since i came back from genting. n to think that 40 over days before the departure, we were counting down and now, i'm back for 1 wk already. was a really great great trip. went to 2 places that i had never been before. the mushroom farm and the chin swee temple. scenery was fantastic at the temple. air was much fresher than at the hotel because of the lack of vehicles. really enjoyed the trip very much. and now that the trip is over, christmas is also over. time really flies past so quickly indeed. back in nov when i started listening to xmas songs, ppl are saying its still so long away, 1 month plus away. now, xmas is over. another 365 days before xmas is here again. xmas is great this year. was at the countdown on xmas eve, as usual. went for CCIS - Celebrate Christmas In Singapore, today. orchard road was closed from 1pm to 1am. concert today was nice. floats were ok, not tat fantastic. last year's float was nicer. but the atmosphere was great. prob will volunteer for CCIS 2008 next year. well, i got to wait patiently already. but again, time flies so it prob will be here again pretty soon. alrite then.. to all, merry xmas and a happy new year.

christmas festive mood?

2007-12-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

its the holidays. supposedly holidays. but there are so many things to be done. 2 research projects and 1 fyp. there goes my dec holidays. its the christmas festive season. orchard is so beautiful. christmas spirit and the magical feeling is so strong there. the shopping malls are filled with so many christmas decorations, toys, gifts and cards. taka has its own christmas bags and wrapping service, as like the previous years. there is the christmas toy fair and christmas trim shop at taka square. metro has its own christmas trim shop at paragon. so does robinsons at centrepoint and raffles city. its just so beautiful, cozy and warm despite the cold rainy weather these past few days. the beautiful snow flake and crystal lightings theme of prince noel searching for princess ballerina lining the entire stretch of orchard road. so many places to go and things to do. wanted to fully just enjoy all these sights, the christmas mood, the many many beautiful malls from bugis to city hall to orchard to tanglin. wish i can just spend at least 1 entire day, immersing myself in the christmas mood, the magical feeling, christmas shopping all the way, without any worries. but alas, i'm not sure if i can do so.. so many projects to be done. and the dec holidays are coming to an end very very soon. christmas is only 2 wks away. exactly 2 wks.. not sure if i can finish all my work and have at least 1 day to fully spend outside, without having to think of work. few days left.. got to put in more time to get all the stupid work done. then i can really enjoy christmas, whatever is left of it... i must make it happen.... christmas cant be ruined by the stupid work not done.. no way am i gonna let that happen..

farewell

2007-11-29T16:39:00.000+08:00

as i enter this entry, the memorial service of the 5 rowers would have been over. at this very moment, as i am typing, the bodies of 5 men are being reduced to ashes, or maybe, even having already been turned to ashes. its hard and so sad to think that just less than 6 days ago, these 5 men are alive, breathing, able to be touched, hugged and held, are today motionless, void of life and now being placed in a furnace. the scene must have been extremely heartbreaking, to see the 5 coffins side by side, while family members and friends look on at the service. can imagine how devastated everybody must have been, especially when the coffins are being pushed into the furnaces. many lives will definitely never be the same again. 5 impacting lives are gone forever today, taking everything physical of them away with them, leaving behind only memories for those who know them, and sadness and condolescenes for those who do not.
rest in peace, rowers.

fragility of life...

2007-11-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

deeply saddened by the loss of 5 lives. why do such loss of lives always occur near christmas? oh God, why do such things happen? i'm feeling the saddness as if i had known them personally as a friend. why am i feeling so emotional? the heartwrenching news reports and photos in the papers are just so tear-invoking. not that i actually cried, but the emotions are welling up. the photos and description of the family members at the site of the accident, calling out for their loved ones, never to return, the surviving team members, experiencing the pain of knowing their friends and buddies died in front of them and yet unable to do anything to save them. had this experience last year. watching the life drain out of a living person and yet unable to do anything to help. its almost 1 year now. maybe i had not really gotten over it. maybe this incident triggered the inner emotions. maybe.. maybe.. maybe what? i do not know either. perception of life will no longer be the same again. the fragility of life....

exams

2007-11-24T17:17:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling really really really bored now. its sat and here i am, in hall, trying to study.. felt no motivation at all. just moments ago, i was at the staircase, looking at the main road, feeling like going out. saw a lorry doing a u-turn at a roundabout and the scene reminded me of thailand during crescendo. dont know why, know know how to explain, but this is not the 1st time this happened. guess i kinda miss crescendo and wallaby. looking back now, days in 40sar have been fun, especially the overseas training. hopefully, there will be a chance to go back to either crescendo or wallaby again during ict in the near future. know ppl will think i am crazy, but heh, i am crazy now. exams always drive me nuts, even though i have only 1 paper this time. the stress is still there nonetheless. alright. shall end off here. got to get back to studying, if i can even concentrate at all.. got to try.. no choice for me..

The Troublesome Romance

2007-11-18T19:42:00.000+08:00

that's the title of the show on screen on channel 8 yest nite at 1230am. the story revolves around 3 person, a heart surgeon specialist, a teenage girl and the girl's social worker. the heart surgeon, dr kwok, lost his wife after failing to save her in a major heart surgery. after her death, her lawyer informed him that she has bought a 15million dollar insurance policy under his name. thinking that he knew of this and hence deliberately killed her, the insurance company put him under investigation. extremely sad that he failed to save his wife whom he loved very much, he lost confidence in himself as a doctor. the teenage girl, ah wi, supposed dumped by her boyfriends is disappointed with life and has no money and no place to live. both kwok and wi wanted to commit suicide and by a twist of fate, met on a few occasions and on the last, went to kwok's apartment to commit suicide. as he was dying, he "saw" his dead wife, who "lectured" him, saying that he is a doctor, a doctor who is supposed to save lives and not help another person to die. heeding his wife's words, kwok decided to live on and help wi change her opinion of life. on the other hand, wi's social worker, ms chan, loves to help other ppl but yet other ppl always treated her badly. chan's bf blackmailed her for money with nude pictures of her and she has no idea what to do about it. one day, while dining at a restaurant, kwok and wi saw a "gangster" boss get hacked on the hand and was bleeding profusely. kwok saved him and later met chan. trying to save chan, kwok, wi and wi's bf decided to buy the nude photos from chan's bf. as they entered the restaurant where the meeting is to be held, the "gangster" boss recognised kwok and called him his saviour. being a scum, wi's bf only gave some of the photos, saying that the money they offered could only buy that amount of money. they started up fighting and at that moment, the "gangster" boss returned to the restaurant to get his hp which he has forgotten. seeing wi's bf fighting with his saviour, he was furious and got his man to grab wi's bf. learning bout what he has done, he was even more furious with him for blackmailing his saviour's gf (chan) and demanded him to hand over all the photos. having no choice, he did as told and as they are bout to leave the salon where the photos are hidden, chan's bf used a pair of scissors and tried to stab kwok. chan blocked the blow and was stabbed in the heart. the "gangster" boss ordered his man to beat up the scum while offering his car to send chan to the hospital. knowing that kwok has lost confidence of himself as a doctor, chan, as she was dying, requested that he do the surgery. eventually, he gathered his courage and did the surgery, which turned up to be a success. in the end, kwok became a gd heart doctor again having regained his confidence, wi and her bf are married, and chan continued to help other ppl. the 4 of them, together with the "gangster" boss, became good and close friends..

yeap. that's the whole story. was a very touching show. i liked the "gangster" boss. his character is so cute, so full of "yi qi", ever grateful to his saviour. hopefully, channel 8 will screen this show again.. =) here's the movie review..

http://www.lovehkfilm.com/reviews/troublesome_romance.htm

wonderful sat..

2007-11-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

went for bcls today. was a tiring day for me, with only 3 hrs of slp yest nite.. practically dragged myself out of bed today to attend the course. reached slightly just before 8am, thinking that it starts at 8am but to my horror, realised that there was nobody and the revelation that the starting time is 9am struck me. was pissed with myself for not checking yest nite b4 i slp because i could have had slept for another hr. oh well.. tired as i was, i was fully awake by the time bcls started. yeap. the course was very fun and interesting. not trying to boast here, but on my 1st attempt, i had already met the passing criteria. was very happy of course. did pretty ok throughout the entire course and at the end, i passed. i'm now certified!! hurray!! made some new friends too.. carol, james, and oops, i forgot her name.. haha.. oh well.. was a great and very enjoyable course.. aed next? shall see how it goes..
anyway, met tecktien for dinner just now too.. finally got to meet up with him after so long. he's a real busy man. haha.. had a gd chat and dinner. after dinner, went to town. boy. . the xmas spirit is getting stronger and stronger. even the paragon tree is up.. part of the lightings was lighted up just now as a test.. it was so beautiful. the blue and white lights created such a magical feeling. that's why i love xmas so much.. its just so beautiful everywhere when it comes to this time of the year. next wk i believe will be the full lightup. haha.. cant wait.. woohooo. its the magical time of the year again!! enjoy ppl.. =)

Update......

2007-11-07T20:51:00.000+08:00

ok.. finally an update after more than 1 month. been very tied down by sch work.. its crazy.. fyp alone can kill me.. and i have yet to start tests yet. gosh.. still stuck at the hardware part. why am i so slow you may ask. that's because i have to glue about 4800 wooden cubes onto plywood planks. sigh.. that takes a loooooooooooooooong time.. only 2 are done so far. look at the picture. that's 1 piece of plywood with 477 cubes.
does it look nice? haha. i'm having a "phobia" of cubes now. oh well, must still get it done no matter what. 2 pieces done. another 5 or 6 pieces more to go. God help me..

went to orchard to shop last week. been a long time since i relaxed. and know what? christmas deco in orchard is up. haha.. yay.. i'm so excited.. soooooooooo very excited. my favourite holiday is coming.. woo hoo.. light up will prob take place next week. the malls in orchard have already put up their christmas deco and started playing xmas carols. well, most of them actually, not all.. those bigger scale malls like paragon, ngee ann city. yeap. takashimaya already has its huge 3 storey tree up. paragon is slow this year. will take pictures next week when the light up starts. my usual xmas lightings phototaking. haha.. gosh.. i can hardly wait. xmas is always so fun, exciting and beautiful. had a new and much better camera now and hopefully, my xmas photos collection will be of better quality. gonna take many many photos this year.. gonna enjoy xmas this yr.. looking forward to the countdown. n of cos, new year's eve. nus will be participating in the countdown at esplanade this year. cool isnt it.. haha.. but i'm more interested in xmas countdown. alright. will update more, with photos of the xmas spirit this yr soon.. wishing all my readers an early MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

New music

2007-10-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

new background music.. 4 of them. enjoy. they are really beautiful.. God bless.. =)

Focus

2007-09-25T00:03:00.003+08:00

alright. have not updated for quite some time. was pre-occupied with a couple of issues lately. so much so that i am so behind time in my work. its already the mid term break and i have slacked too much. need to start focusing and mugging. i need to concentrate. yeap. that's what i need to do from tomorrow.. and i will..

new church building!!

2007-09-16T22:58:00.001+08:00

the news is released in the press today. its official. we are finally going to have our own church building! praise the Lord!! though its going to be another 4 yrs before we move to our very own church building in 2011, its worth the wait.. haha.. i am so excited now. cant wait to go to our very very own church building, our very own, 24/7. some even said the design looked like Noah's ark.yeap. that's how cool it will be.. alright.. must contain my excitment. shall update my blog again soon. i hope.. =)

Blessed, so so blessed..

2007-09-07T22:14:00.001+08:00

i'm so very happy now. got both projects which i wanted during the balloting just now.there are a total of 54 projects for 27 students. each person is supposed to choose a number from the box and the number determines the order in which you choose your project. so, the smaller your number, the earlier you get to choose the project. now, here is the catch. each person is supposed to choose 2 projects, and hence there are 2 rounds of "lucky draw". the "excitement" comes in the 2nd round because in the 1st round, 27 easy or good projects have been taken up, leaving only a few good ones. in the 1st round, i got the number 15, hence was the 15th person to select the projects. when it was my turn, my 1st choice of project has only 1 vacancy left and i got it. haha. so blessed isnt it. as the round continues, more and more projects are taken up and you can hear people groaning about their desired projects being taken up. when it comes to the 2nd round, its turn to pick a number again. and guess what. i got the number 1 this time round. i get to choose the project 1st in the 2nd round!! as a result, i got the project which i desired!! few of my friends are not so lucky. 1 of them got 8 in the 1st round and got 23nd in the 2nd round and hence didnt get the choice he wanted and had to end up with a rather difficult project. i am so thankful and so blessed. God is such a wonderful God. my prayers are always answered. no words can describe how thankful i am. thank you Lord.

mixed feeling, again...

2007-09-02T01:53:00.001+08:00

i wont say that i am not disappointed. i am as a matter of fact. who wont? i really hope i am able to win it. even though they have good and reasonable reasons which made me feel a bit better, i still am quite sad. well, at least i am glad that things will be in good hands. glad that T&A did not choose the wrong person and that they are able to see the characters of interested personnel. i probably will still go for it. i mean i really love it. shall see how things go. guess God has His plans and i shall let Him guide me along. i still have 3 days to consider my decision. hopefully i will have a right decision.

2nd chance?

2007-08-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

dont know if i should blog about this. want to pen it down but yet dont want it to be so obvious. how should i go bout it? oh well. lets just say i am not sure if i am able to show my gratitute towards the thing that i love to do, my passion, my interest. would really like to but its not my choice anymore. know that things were not done as well as it should have been, but its not really what i wanted. know that i shouldnt push the blame away but its really true that i was "restricted" and that what i had in mind wasnt put to plan. things were quite messy from within. wanted to clear things up but chance was not given. dont know if i will be given another 2nd chance to correct things. can only hope for the best.

"as you have believed, so let it be done for you" - Matthew 8:13

Worries no more

2007-08-23T10:34:00.000+08:00

shall start of with saying that i am in kind of a dilemma now. shall i continue or not to continue? on 1 hand i do not wish to continue the struggle but yet on the other hand, i indeed do not feel like giving up like this. sigh. shall see the outcome this sat before making my final decision.

and guess what. i got my aeronautical specialization. haha. finally, after so many anxious days, weeks and months, i have gotten it at last. He has proven to be always so faithful in answering prayers yet once again. and the beauty is that daily devotion yest was about casting all worries on Him. isnt He just wonderful? haha. yeap. God is great. =D this is the verse that was in the devotion yest. shall share it here. enjoy.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:6–7

reflections

2007-08-20T02:15:00.000+08:00

as the title suggests, this entry is about the reflections i had of the past 3 months of the holidays. i will say its a very nice and rather well spent holidays. it was my last holidays so kinda treasured it a lot. but alas, i had to be down with dengue for 2 wks and another 1 month for complete recovery. but like i had mentioned in a previous entry, the dengue made me realise and reinstated how important real and true friends are. i was really touched by those who came to visit me during my stay in sgh. after my discharge, the rest of the holidays are spent doing the things that i like and going to genting, my favourite holiday destination. though its jus a short 3 days trip with my parents, i really enjoyed myself there. looking forward to the end of year holidays where i will go there with my whole family. hehe. right after my genting trip, i am back into hall, where i had a really wonderful orientation. never have i enjoyed orientation so much before. used to dislike orientations. but this time round, i enjoyed myself and loved my og. woo hoo.. udeiya rocks. my og is really a bunch of happening people. thanks to them, i had a really fun, enjoyable and memorable orientation to remember for my last year in hall and in nus.
now, the holidays have ended and school has started for 1 week. i have no classes on mon and thur. so on mon, i decided to go to the airport to "relax". while looking at the sky and planes at the viewing mall at T1, the clear sky and the thick white clouds reminded me of wallaby. missed the days when i was there. weather may be hot, conditions may be unfavourable, training may be tough, but thinking back now, it has been a nice and memorable time there. if i have a chance to go back there again during reservist, i will definitely look forward to it. once i have the photos back, i will post it up. i miss wallaby. tue was normal, with nothing special except going for classes. same goes for wednesday. thursday was the happening night. had our udeiya gathering in b blk lounge at night. turnout was very good. we had donut factory donuts, snacks, drinks and ice cream and even watched dvd after playing games. had lots and lots of fun on thursday night. udeiya really rocks.. i love udeiya.. haha.. friday was another nice night. after ibg, a few udeiya peeps went for supper together. told you we are a happening og. haha. nothing much happened on sat. went for the south east area campfire on sat night. supposed to part of the in charge of this campfire too because i am also the area venture leader but because i was down with dengue during the planning stage, i was left out of it.. hehe.. blessing in disguise? hmm.. shall not comment on this. sunday, which is today, or should i say yesterday, was another great night in eusoff.. b blk was having a farewell party for jacky as he is leaving for korea for sep. we gave him 1 "good time" and after that, we just gathered around and played drinking games and fooled around. eusoff really rocks. i love eusoff.. haha.. its gonna be the start of the 2nd wk. must start some serious studying soon. but of course, at the same time, i am not gonna miss out the fun in hall. eusoff rocks. b blk rocks. udeiya rock.. woo hoo..

best float of rag 2007

2007-08-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

we won! we won! we won won WON!!! Eusoff has the best float in Rag 2007. woo hoo.. go Eusoff.. i am so very happy and excited now, together with the many many raggers who put in 3 months of hard work to get this show today going. the tears of joy on so many eusoffians' face when the result was announced, the screaming and cheering hysterical eusoffians just showed how much we valued this award. finally, we won it back again. the marvel of the engineering of the mechanism, the colours, the design of the float, no doubt we are the BEST! enough said. i am a bit at a loss of words. let the pictures do the talking and show why eusoff is the BEST float..

our float. the space shuttle.
the exhaust of the space shuttle and the movable pistons
the explorer. this "car" was made entirely by eusoffians, out of various materials. talented arent they.. =)the wings of the space shuttle.

alright. now to showcase some pic of the other halls' floats. they are quite good too.. but not good enough for eusoff.. =)
King Edward VII hall's float. the stadium.

the soccer boot and the ball.

the scoreboard and miscellaneous items.

huge coin..

the spotlights of the stadium, made up of CDs

grandstand..

sheares hall's cinderella pumpkin carriage.. the modernised and mechanised version.

opening of the pumpkin carriage.
raffles hall's magical schoolbus.. nice engine details..

the front of the magical schoolbus
kent ridge hall's plane crash on an island. sounds like LOST

tail of the crashed plane beside the waterfall

temasek hall's wayang kulit

the screen and the puppets and the pottery..

all these floats u see here are made entirely by students, using just bottles, cans, cardboards etc.. sounds fun isnt it? it is SUPER FUN. so for those of you who are coming to nus, remember to stay in hall and u get to have such fun. =D

EUSOFF RAG DANCE!!!!!

2007-08-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNznhoW-XaE

woo hoo... EUSOFF rag preview.. die die must watch!! this was videoed yest night. the dance moves are simply mind blowing.. at a loss of words on what to say. so proud and excited of eusoff..just watch it..

awakening..

2007-08-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

had nussu flag day yest. was very very tiring but fun. flagged from 7am to 10pm. yeap. thats a whole 15 hours. but of course, with a couple of hours of rest in between. i'm not a freak of nature like lawyer said i am. remember that lawyer.. i also need a rest. and i am also not cruel nor a slave driver. u had your rest at the designated time, as promised. was fun flagging with lawyer, though i had to endure the things she said. gosh. a lawyer indeed. could never win her in an debate nor argument. on-job-training before she was even "qualified". anyway, that's beside the point. point is it feels great to be flagging for eusoff, to be committed to eusoff, to make eusoff my 1st priority now. had been making that place the 1st priority over hall, over nus, over the place where i should have been for the past 3 years. i am not going to make the same mistake this time. sacrificed so much and all i get is this crap, even having to ans to that ******* now regarding the things i do. you have no right to question me, and i dont have to answer to you. argg... felt so much like scolding out vulgarities in here. cant be bothered much with what they do with that place anymore. really really very tired. rather spend my energy for the place where i should be spending on, to the people/person whom i should care for, than getting myself pissed with the people in that place. all i will do there now is what i should be doing. nothing more, nothing less. eusoff is where i pledge my loyalty n commitment to, where i will devote my time and energy now. no more that place. n come to think of it, that place is where my very bad pains originated from. 3 yrs ago and now again with another one. alright. shall not talk bout that place anymore. had my awakening and very clear with what i should be doing now, where and whom i should devote my time to now. Eusoff, to the fore!!!

Eusoff!!!

2007-08-04T02:11:00.000+08:00

i am feeling very very very high now. not high due to alcohol but high and excited. high and proud. high and emo. Eusoff is the cause of all these. why? just ended our orientation week tonight, with a closing ceremony and a performance by the Eusoff band. the atmosphere and level of ecstasy is just simply overwhelming. been a very wonderful orientation week with my og Udeiya. the closing ceremony is just so wonderfully done. to me, its also very touching and heartwarming. ever since Eusoff accepted me in about 1 year plus ago, i had pledged my loyalty to Eusoff and tonight, i felt so proud of Eusoff, so proud of our band, so proud of our EHOC. the way all of us jumped and clapped and cheered and sang with the band, the level of enthusiasm of everybody present, the feeling is just beyond description. wanted so much to tell everybody how great Eusoff is. had a sense of belonging, a feeling this is where i truly belong, what i really ought to do, be and devote myself, instead of being at that place which is now causing me quite a bit of unhappiness, the place where i am dealing with people, or kids, who are not at the same level of maturity, who wont understand things that people of our "generation" like. for instance this whole entire orientation week. they will prob not understand and think its lame etc. maybe i should start hanging out more with people of my standing, instead of sacrificing so much time and ultimately to be betrayed. maybe i should spend less time in that now unhappy place. alright. enough of that unhappy place of betrayers. coming tue is the nussu flag day. next sat will be the rag day. looking forward to it. saw the preview just now. the rag and the dance. boy. the dance is so full of energy, so full of life, so full of power. again, this is something "they" wont understand or appreciate even if i had told them how great our dancers and dance are. looking at their dance club and dances, ha, i wanted to laugh myself to death. seeing how excited they are in their concerts, screaming their lungs out, i just gave myself that "ha" grin, laughing at their ignorance. wait till they see what real dances are. they think that their dance club is so wonderful but they are just frogs living in a well. cant blame them also, can i. they are but little kids. hahahahaha. anyway, yah.. our dance is really cool. whoever seeing it will definitely move their bodies to the beat and the moves. i can vouch for that. proud of Eusoff but sadly, this will be my last year here. sigh. well, all good things must come to an end. what's more important is that i had enjoyed myself. i can proudly say "i love Eusoff". go Udeiya, go Eusoff!!!

Udeiya

2007-08-02T00:57:00.000+08:00

Udeiya. thats the name of my tribe, aka, my og name for orientation. been a great 3 days. 2 more days to come. the freshies have been fun, great and wonderful. of cos, not forgetting, talented. had lots of fun the past 3 days with them. been tiring too. hardly have ideas on what to write in this entry so this will prob be a very short 1. it may be tiring but its fun fun and more fun all the way. just earlier on we had our eusoff challenge, a run around campus. wanted to run with my og but i had to cover safety as 1st aider so i had to stay in the vehicle. nonetheless, managed to join them near the ending 200m or so to the finishing point. love my og. love my freshies. 2 more days to go. 2 more days of fun before sch starts. been a really great orientation this year. a success so far i will say. Eusoff rocks. Udeiya rocks rocks rocks. GO UDEIYA!! we are the best. SA SA EHHHHH....

Heritagefest

2007-07-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

saw this heritagefest in suntec, in line with the national day celebration. its about the memories and things of yesteryear. saw many things that were familiar with me and that made me feel how old i am. here are the pics
ICE cologne. loved the icy and cooling feeling when i applied in when i was young.

had this cologne too. this one had a nicer scent..

glass bottled F&N softdrinks.
A&W cups. loved A&W the most. more than mac or kfc. their ice cream waffle rocks. has strawberry and chocolate sauce toppings on the vanilla ice cream too. such a pity that the chain closed now. sigh.

cinema movie advertisement poster.

the previous scouts uniform. with the scout standard and advance scout standard badge.

katong district and SPL. SANA badge too. the badges' designs have not changed over the years!

card games of my childhood times. man.. i feel so old and antique.

i had this card game too... although i dont like the cards.
ali baba and the 40 thieves cards and animal chess. had both these games too.. lol..
number puzzle an parachute soldier. games that are given free when you buy yakult from the sch canteen in pri sch. u throw the soldier up in the air and it will float now. yeap. that's our type of toys when i was a kid..
PSP of my childhood time. haha. western bar was fun.. yeap. played it before..

the barber. cut my hair at such barber shops when i was still in pri sch. think sri nada still has something similar. =)
SEGA 16 bit game console, PS 2 of my time. the most luxurious and most expensive game console when i was still a kid.

brush your teeth campaign in pri sch.
stationary we used.milo lovers, this is how the milo tin looked like in the past. saw this tin design only once.

Genting Highlands

2007-07-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

been some time since i blogged. haha. was in genting over the weekend. quite obvious from the title isnt it. anyway, was there again, as promised to myself. simply loved that place to bits.. loved the journey and the scenery along the wat there, loved the weather there, loved the peace there. ok, maybe not peace but there is a feeling of serenity whenever i was there. that's the reason why i went there every 6 months during the holidays to relax before school starts. took lots of pictures there. 1.1gb worth of pictures. not that i have never taken pictures there before. in fact, all the pictures that i took this time, i had already taken them before in the previous trips. but there are some new pictures though.
the chocolate shop in First World Plaza. cute isnt it? sweetest place on earth indeed. hershey's rocks. =)

goofy. yeah..
mickey!malaysia fruit festival. fruit buffet at First World Cafe in First World Hotelgenting hotel, the flagship hotel of genting highlands, under construction.construction of resort hotelconstruction of highlands hotelfirst world hotel tower 1 under construction
pylon of the genting skyway. marvellous engineering.shop near foot of genting highlands selling local malaysian products.
san shu gong. the place of origin of a favourite local brand
snake village
mobile roasted chestnut seller on a bike. something found only in malaysiaroadside fruit stall. found only in malaysia too.

Wonderful God

2007-07-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

yeap. my God is a wonderful wonderful God. duhz.. i dont know how to say how i was feeling this morning. just feeling so very grateful, so thankful towards Him and so very very touched that i'm at a loss of words. this is what happened. i had to go back to nus today to ballot for my fyp (final year project). the process goes in such a way that everybody writes on a piece of paper their name and their 1st choice and submit it. the department office staff then sort then together according to project. those projects that are chosen by only 1 person means that that person gets the project. those projects that are chosen by 2 or more students will have to be balloted. the ballot goes in this way. the pieces of paper are folded and mixed together and a person picks a piece from the lot, exactly the same way as a lucky draw. the student whose paper gets picked gets the project while the other students who chose that same project have to re-select a new project as their 2nd choice. now, this is what happened to me. my project was chosen by 3 students, me inclusive. the staff, being screwed up (as usual), announced that one of the student's name (lets call him A), saying that he has gotten the project. when i heard that, my heart sank. i was so sad that i couldnt think logically to think that how can it be possible for A to get the project when i had also selected the same project. by right, the project has to be balloted and being not in the right frame of mind, i did not think of this. 5min later, the staff said that my project was chosen by 2 person, myself and another student (B). at that moment, i had a glimpse of hope again, thinking that i had heard wrongly just now for you see, my project number is 28 and so i thought that i had heard 38. yah, so with my heart pounding profusely against my ribcage, i sat there, fist clenched, praying and praying, asking God to let my paper be selected. and behold, my piece of paper is indeed selected!! i was simple delighted, thanking God. but less than 10min later, the bombshell was dropped. the staff called out my name and said that my project was already taken by A. my heart sank even lower this time. then, by some amazing "awakening", i realised that how can A get the project straight away when B and myself had also chosen the same project. and hence, i mentioned this to the 2 "capable" staff and said that this is very screwed up. they were at a loss at what to do momentarily, as expected. after some discussion, they told everyone present that the 3 of us, A, B and myself have to go through balloting to be fair. i was happy and anxious at the same time, with my heart beating even faster. same thing, i just kept praying in my heart for God to let me get the project again. it was the exact same feeling as when i was getting back my O and A level results. and when the results were announced, guess what. I GOT THE PROJECT! you can imagine how happy and relieved i was. i was totally at a loss of words. TWICE, my paper was selected in the bidding. this is just amazing. the grace of God, the power of prayers and faith. my friend said that i was destined to get the project. i know i am not destined to get it. i dont believe in destiny. not anymore. the only way i can explain this is that God let me have that project. i was very thankful and at the same time, very ashamed of myself. i have not been spending quality time with God for almost 3 times and yet, He answered when i called for His help, there when i need Him. Thank you Lord. You are indeed a wonderful God.

“So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened." - Luke 11:9-10

SAF Colours

2007-07-14T22:38:00.000+08:00

just a random post. was at the SAF Colours uncasting ceremony just now. saw part of the ceremony just now and its was cool.. the guard of honour in number 1 uniform, the warrant officers with their pace sticks and the never absent from parades SAF band. dont know what else to say. at a loss of words. just that the ceremony reminded me of all the parades that i had gone through. it sucks when u are in it but now that i am out of it and am watching it, it feels totally different.
wish i can be in a parade again. ha. mus be out of my mind. oh well..

Hilarious video

2007-07-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=TtJRNyPK-lc

my loyal readers, do go to this link and view the video. haha. its really hilarious.. the dance is super cool too. how i know about this video? from my hall's orientation trial today. couldnt stop laughing. girly man man man man... kill her kill her kill her.. lol.. enjoy the show people.

EMO

2007-07-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

feeling many many kinds of emotions now, as the title of this entry said. what should i start with? alright. start with the bad ones first.

bad emo 1
i am beginning to feel disheartened about what i am doing. nothing seems to be going right. everything seems to be going against my direction of movement. am i too unreasonable or have i set too high a standard n expect too much? i dont know. i feel so lost now. a little boat in the middle of the ocean in a storm. that is how i am feeling now. i feel like stopping, feel like quitting. should i or should i not? i got to think very seriously about this question.

bad emo 2
suddenly feel like listening to sad sad songs today. dont know wadid listen to a few. one of them is called Life In Mono. here's how the lyrics go.

The stranger sang a theme
from someone elses dream
the leaves began to fall
and no one spoke at all
but I cant seem to recall
when you came along
Ingenue

Ingenue
I just dont know what to do

The tree-lined avenue
begins to fade from view
drowning past regrets
in tea and cigarettes
but I cant seem to forget
when you came along
Ingenue

Ingenue
I just dont know what to do

Ingenue
I just dont know what to do

ok. now for the good emo. saw the ndp flypass again today. gosh. seeing all the ushers, the soldiers and their security pass, the hive of activity at the entire marina bay area brings back all the memories when i was like one of them. the whole place is so lively, so full of life, which i simply love love and love even more. i still have my ndp security pass from both the years which we did ndp duties. miss those days so very much. how i wish i can have a chance to don the uniform and be on duty at ndp again. i am so very glad and thankful that i got to do ndp duties for 2 years, giving me such fond memories, something which i may never get to experience again. alrite. enough of emo for today.

Hello Ralliart Lancer Turbo, goodbye Toyota Mark X

2007-07-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

as the title says, i have given up on the goal of getting a mark x. sigh. its way too expensive. got myself another new goal instead. the mitsubishi ralliart lancer turbo. cool engine, nice technical spec and much cheaper than the mark x. must start saving towards it. yay.
anyway, been exactly 1 month since i was warded for dengue. time indeed pass so quicly. the horrible 9 days last month. will not talk too much on it. just wanna make a passing remark bout some bad experience. alright. till the next update.

SAF Day

2007-07-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

today is 1 july, saf day. still remembered my 1st saf day. was 5 years ago in 2002. was still in mcc then. went to national stadium and waited there for hours. sun was shining hot at first and then it started to rain. we sat there, in the rain, in the cold, till the entire parade is over. by the time we were back at soa, we were soaked and the boots totally wet inside out.
oh yah. i think i forgot to mention that in the ndp showcase yesterday, the navy detonated an underwater mine/bomb too. yeap. a spectacular show indeed. alright. no ideas on what to write today. shall stop here.

NDP 07 - NS 40th Anniversary

2007-06-30T22:18:00.000+08:00

ok. i must blog bout this. this is just way too cool.. totally blew my head off. may sound exagerated but its really that cool. went to watch the NDP rehearsal just now. the parade was as per normal, nothing too special. the special show was after the march pass. because its the 40th anniversary of national service this year, the armed forces put up a really spectacular display. first, there is the needless to say flypass by the F-16s. as always, they are just way too cool with their afterburners blasting away. i was crossing the road at city hall and i just stopped in the middle of the road and saluted the planes and pilots. haha. know it sounds crazy but who cares. the pilots are cool. ok. next up, after the march pass, a chinook helicopter came flying over from the marina south side to the parade area. it hovered a couple of meters above the sea and the water surface was jus a huge turbulence. water was spraying all around and the wipers of the chinook was going at a very fast pace. the cargo door opened and 2 by 2, divers jumped out from the chinook into the water before the chinook flew ahead a short distance, followed by another 2 divers jumping. a total of 8 divers jumped i think. with that, the assault rubber boats, dont know what they are called, raced to the scene and picked up the divers from the water. boats from the navy and police coast guards making high speed chases made up the next part of the show. making sharp turns, huge waves were created in the sea. the view is just great. navy rocks too.. haha. last part. my favourite. the air force. 2 AH-64 Apache attack helicopters came to the scene, made a few manoeuvers, and hovered in the air and saluted to the nation. that scene made me feel so proud of our armed forces. in fact, i am actually quite proud of our armed forces, although there are several bad points about it. that aside, seeing all the soldiers doing duties at the ndp site just now, i wished i could do so again. wish i was a soldier again. sound crazy again but i really meant it. i dont know why either. many ppl were asking me why i did not sign on since i liked the armed forces so much. the army is just not for me i guess. the airforce definitely i will sign on but not the army. oh well, i dont have the chance to be in the airforce. nonetheless, i will still give my loyalty and my best to the army. i love my vocation of mortar. happy 40th anniversary national service. happy birthday singapore.

holidays

2007-06-29T22:16:00.000+08:00

june is coming to an end tomorrow. just realized that i have only 1 month of holidays left. gosh. time passes so super fast. been 2 months since may when my holidays started. this will be my last holidays before i graduate next year and start work. ahh.. nightmare of working. cant imagine. gonna make sure i enjoy myself to the max in this last month of holi. yeap i will. before my nightmare starts.

army

2007-06-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

passed by the floating stadium at marina yest. wanted to go in to take a look at the scouts but was not allowed to by the security. whole place was swarming with soldiers. sight gave a heart warming feeling. reminded me of my nsf days when we had to do ndp duties. think i mentioned this before but i want to say it again. the pride of being a singaporean, of being in uniform doing my duties, saluting the national flag etc and reciting the pledge and singing the national anthem. if given a chance, i would definitely like to serve in ndp again. of course i can do this as a volunteer with external organisations but what i want is to do so in unifrom. the feeling is totally different. know i sound crazy but that is how i am feeling now. i had even wanted to go back for ict but alas, i couldnt because of the stupid dengue that i had. feeling bad now that i did not join my friends back in camp. was looking forward to this ict and was even training myself up for it. kinda miss my friends in camp. oh well. nothing that i can do about it too. shall just look forward to the next ict next year then.

In Camp Training (ICT)

2007-06-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

was supposed to go for reservist training tomorrow. but now i dont have to anymore because i am on MC for dengue. was actually looking forward to it. was even training myself up for the ict. to be able to see all my army friends again, to go through s*** together, outfield together and draw vehicles and equipment together and taking ippt together. and the training schedule for this ict looks slack, even though there is live firing and a 2 day 1 night battalion exercise. and this time, mortar platoon is fighting as mortar and not as enemy. and lta quek is going to the mortar pc. going to miss out lots of fun. sigh. guess everything happens for a reason. question not and leave it to God.

dengue

2007-06-13T11:05:00.000+08:00

was discharged from SGH yest afternoon after spending 9 days there for dengue fever. was a really horrible 9 day ordeal for me, where my freedom is taken away from me, a death sentence for a hyper-active person like me. was confined to bed 24/7 for the whole period. i couldnt even go to the toilet myself. everywhere i go, i had to call for the nurse. not that i cant do so myself, but i am not allowed to do so, for fear of me fainting or knocking myself, causing bruises and internal bleeding which cant be stopped. for the 1st few days, i cant even go to the toilet. the nurse had to give me a urinal and i had to relieve myself there by the bedside. my world consists of only the hospital ward and i dont even know what it looks like outside the ward. and that is only the mental pain. there is the physical pain part too. every morning, before i am awake, the nurse came to poke me, drawing blood at 530am. not that i can sleep at night anyway, but the feeling just sucks. after drawing the blood, i just sit up in bed, looking at the clock tick by, waiting for dawn to break, listening to the other patients snore and watching them sleep so soundly. due to all the drawing of blood, i have at least 15 needle holes on my arm now. yeap. that's how bad it is. the mental and physical pain and torture.
bad part aside, there is some good things about this ordeal too. learnt and realised quite a few things throughout this "journey". in fact, the realisation hit me only yest morning. 1stly, i was supposed to stay in a B2 class ward but due to a lack of beds, i was put up in a B1 class ward, with air con and tv facilities. was told that i will be shifted to the B2 ward once there is vacancy there but for the 9 days, i was not shifted. the night shift nurse commented yest morning at 515am that i am a very lucky dengue patient, to be staying in a B1 class ward, with 1st class services. when she said that, i know that its not luck. it has to be God's grace. for 9 days, 1st class ward with very nice, caring and friendly nurses tending to me and looking after me, how else can one explain this? the nurses there were really very very nice and friendly, chatting and joking with them. and because i was there for so long, they know me "well". even the lab technician who tested my blood, who had never seen me personally before, knew that the test tube of blood has to be from me once he saw the ward number, saying "must be dominic's blood". and of course, from this ordeal, i learnt that nothing beats real and true friends in this world, not forgetting relatives of course. for 9 days, i had friends visiting me everyday, bringing me gifts and fruits, keeping me company to help me kill time. every single day. was really touched by them. even the wife of the patient opposite me said that i am very fortunate to have so many good friends who come everyday to visit me. how true. that made me realise that friends are the really important people in this world. true friends who are there with you in times when you are in need or when you are down. nothing can beat friendship. not even affection. had a "wakeup call" when a friend i sms didnt even reply the message. oh well. like i said, it was a good realisation for me. now i know. friends apart, relatives came to visit me too. my cousins, who came to visit me twice made me very touched too. friends and relatives. the 2 most important group of people in this world. God made me reinstate this importance during this period of time. really very thankful to Him. and to the nurses of ward 55A who looked after me so well during my stay there, and to the friends and relatives who visited me during my hospitalisation.

Food Galore!!

2007-05-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

went to the food expo at singapore expo again. spent even more tonight. gosh. so many types of yummy food, so many offers and promotions. i just cant resist myself and bought whatever that catches my eye, of should i say, my mouth. spent close to $50 at the food fair yesterday and today. now i am truly and really broke. musnt spend anymore money till i get my pay. hang in there dom.. couple of days more to pay day. but its money well spent. nothing beats spending on good food. yum.. food rocks. 3 cheers to the food fair! hip hip hooray! haha.

Priceless

2007-05-29T01:07:00.000+08:00

watched the french romance comedy "Priceless" just now. a romance show was not supposed to be watched alone but i did. i'm in a romance with myself. haha. ok. not at all funny. back to seriousness. well, the show is entertaining. hello. its a comedy. of course its entertaining. other than the occasional comical part, the show is just average i will say. somehow, i dont really like the theme of it. it revolves around money being the main attraction in a romance/love. the gal, knowing that the guy is not rich as he is "supposed" to be, deliberately went to an expensive french restaurant and ordered expensive food like caviar when she dont like it but just because its expensive, even saying that she is forcing herself and one day she might like it. what a b****. that's not all, she booked a suite at a very luxurious hotel, took his visa card and bought branded shoes, clothes, dresses etc, even though knowing that those items will cost him his entire life savings. but the guy, willingly let her spend because he liked her. she told him he cant go on, but foolish him, he rebutted by saying, what's the problem, he's paying so there is no problem there. at 1 point in time, when the scene showed him down to his last coin, with the ATM showing an error, indicating there is no money left in his bank anymore, i felt so sorry for him and pitied him. for love, he is willing to give up all his savings on a woman whom will prob never accept him because he is poor. the plot goes on with him finding a rich woman whom made him her gigolo. the story ends with her realising that money is not everything in true love. money cant buy true love. of course, the 2 got together and it was a happy ending. liked the ending although i dont like the plot.
money is necessary but it is not everything. i dont deny that a person cant do without money. and i am saying this from my point now. why? because i am broke. haha. been spending a lot since the holidays start. despite my pay, somehow, my aim of increasing my savings seem to be progressing so slowly. spent too much on food. food, food and more food. my stomach is my real "bank". and just today, i went to the food expo at singapore expo. boy, its really a heaven to me. ate a lot and of course, spent a lot there today. but its all worth it. eating is a luxury. i love to eat.
after a fruitful harvest at the food expo, with my "fuel tank" full, i went to the airport again. cant remember how many times i have been to the airport in this month of may, but on average, i went there at least once every week. i loved the airport. i loved the planes. i loved to see them. see them parked, see them taxi, see them take off and land. wonderful and magnificent creations. its so relaxing just to be there at the viewing gallery, watching these huge machines in their beauty.
after leaving the airport, i headed to lido to watch "priceless" and there is my day, doing things that i loved to do, spending time by myself. today is indeed an enjoyable day. a day (not including the morning and early afternoon) spent just by myself, doing all my favourite things. that, indeed, is Priceless. something that no money can buy.

updates

2007-05-27T23:15:00.000+08:00

time to have an update or else my blog readers have nothing new to see. lets see where i should start. hmm..
sent jignesh off at the airport yesterday. yeap, he's left again. been such a short 3 weeks this time that he is back this year. going to be another long year before he is back and i get to see him again. sigh. gonna miss him.
had a quarrel yesterday. with who, i will not mention it here. was a rather heated argument. it was so bad that i said things that i should not have said and was so angry that i wanted to just whack him. to heat things up, he was saying things of me that were not true and trying to agitate me to hit him. was really so angry that i was so determined to give him a good beating. even till this morning, the more i think bout it, the angrier i get. then in the afternoon, God told me and asked me to forgive, to apologise, and to forget. it was hard to do so but i got myself to do it in the end. sent an apology sms to him. no response from him but its ok. God is great. smile. =)

"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you." - Matthew 6.14

believe

2007-05-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

how timely. heard the song that was sung in "Bridge to Terabithia" today. this is how it goes: "You’ve got to keep your mind wide open, all the possibilities. You’ve got to live with your eyes open, believe in what you see." can i believe in what i see? can i keep my mind open, to all possibilities? trouble had overcame me and fear and overcame me again. "those who mind dont matter and those who matter dont mind". this phrase kept me believing for a period of time. but to what extend can i apply this phrase now? i dont know. feeling very troubled now. when will my troubles end? who can be my listening ear? jignesh is leaving this sat night. going to be another year before he is back again. sigh.. worries worries and more worries. so much worries that hair on my head and chin is turning white. *big big sigh* is there anything i can believe in truly without any worries? maybe, maybe not. oh well..

Hiding place

2007-05-23T00:11:00.001+08:00

You are my hiding place

You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You

I will trust in You
Let the weak say
I am strong
In the strength of the Lord

You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You

I will trust in You
Let the weak say I am strong
In the strength of the Lord
I will trust in You

i need a hiding place now. a place where i can feel happy once more, a place where i can be me again, a place where i can pour out all the emotions inside me. frustration, anger, sadness, happiness (if any) and despair. does such a hiding place really exist? God, show me this hiding place. let me go into Your hiding place. take away all that i am going through now. let me proclaim that i am strong in Your strength. i place all my trust and all that i am going through now in Your hands. don't leave me alone.

25 minutes

2007-05-22T01:15:00.000+08:00

was reminded of the song "25 minutes" by serene today. a very nice but sad song. the 1st verse struck me hard. it goes like this: "After some time I've finally made up my mind. She is the girl and I really want to make her mine. I'm searching everywhere to find her again. To tell her I love her. And I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done". maybe its because i can relate to it. will not elaborate much, but only have this thought, or advise if you wish to call it so. if you have something to say to somebody, do so before its too late. here is the entire song's lyrics. enjoy.

25 minutes

After some time I've finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's crying while she's saying this

Chorus:
Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
friends

But still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's cried while she's saying this

Chorus

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said

I can still hear what she said

Wonderful God

2007-05-21T00:47:00.000+08:00

pastor prince preached a message today, a message that i believe is what God wants to tell me, after what i have gone through this entire week. yeap. i am very very sure it is Him. Dont know how to say it but everytime i am feeling troubled, He never fails to reveal His word to me in church, through pastor's sermon. i would like a chance to put into practice what pastor preached and what God is telling me, but will i have a chance to? at this moment, it seems rather unlikely. i hope i am wrong in my judgement, that i am just thinking too much and being paranoid. *Praying*

stupid me

2007-05-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

did something which made a*r angry i think. sigh. how stupid can i get? was very angry with myself and feeling very moody. gorged myself with food over dinner with jig, shiqin and zhihao. at a moment, i was feeling sick and bloated from the food. punishment for the stupid and idiotic me i guess.

hopeful or naive?

2007-05-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

is it a hopeful hope or just a naive dream and wish? getting more and more edgy as the day approaches. been praying more and more often during the day in the bus and wherever quiet place there is to calm myself down as the days pass. dont really have confidence to pass this off. depending on God for this to turn out well now. *praying, prayingm praying for calm"

peace and serenity?

2007-05-13T23:40:00.001+08:00

had a nice service today. was pastor prince's birthday and the church sang a birthday song for him and even had a cake for him. happy birthday pastor prince.
had a loss of $80 today. job was cancelled last min. =( had plenty of time to spare today as a result so went to shop around instead. went to suntec, walked through city link to raffles city then to orchard. met up with jig and shiqin in the evening at simei. chatted for a while before they went back to watch the F1 match. i headed for the airport instead after parting with them. was walking along a dark path along the canal to the bus stop opp expo. the atmosphere, the silence, the serenity and the feeling resembled that when i was in tekong. was a nice peaceful walk to the bus stop, just me alone with the clear night sky and the stars above me. kinda missing the days in tekong. sucky they may be, they bring back nice memories now. these are some of the type of memories that can make my face light up with a slight smile in times like this when i am feeling down.
over at the airport, serenity overcame me again. the busy yet peaceful atmosphere never failed to de-stress me whenever i am feeling down. yes. i am feeling very down. as the days countdown to "judgement day", the more afraid i get. the fear and anxiety is overwhelming. i need to calm my nerves down. i could have stayed at the airport the whole entire night to do so. but since i have moved home now, i could not do so. if i was staying in hall, this wouldnt be a prob at all since nobody will know that i am out the whole night. the best i can do now is to stay there as long as i could before catching the bus back. at this moment when i am typing this entry, i am still thinking, still afraid, still painting all the possibilities that can happen. w.l. is right, i can go crazy thinking like this. well, i am crazy in the 1st place to get myself into this situation. praying for a miracle. God, i need another miracle from You. i'm entrusting this whole thing into Your hands, let there be a miracle God, let there be a miracle.

sad

2007-05-13T00:25:00.001+08:00

felt even more demoralised today. dont know how i should go about saying it. you're still giving me the half-warm half-cold treatment. the tone of your words and the words themselves made me feel really sad and that there is no hope. however, i am still thinking of the scene of everything fit and work nicely and to get the material together. how wonderful that will be. sometimes i feel there is hope, sometimes feel that there is none. which will it be? sigh? wish the situation will be back like as it was before the past couple of weeks. knew something like this may happen. has it really happened? sigh. sad. very sad..

mixed feelings

2007-05-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

sigh. i'm feeling sad now. was given the cold treatment. i dont know. sometimes things seem to be alright, sometimes it doesnt seem so. right now, it doesnt seem so. dont know what to expect or what to hope for now. what should i do? seeing the messages made me feel discouraged. during the day, i am hoping for the best, but yet at night, i begin to lose hope. this feeling really sucks. why is it like that? no. i must still think positively and hope for the best. yes i must. only time will tell the outcome.. oh God. pls help me to continue to stay hopeful.

hope?

2007-05-11T02:10:00.000+08:00

so pissed with my wireless network at home. maybe its my laptop. just couldnt connect to the stupid thing. irritating. had to connect by using the network cable with it trailing across the room. was also highly demoralised today too. the more i talk, the more hope i lose. been trying to remain hopeful and be positive but the talks have proved otherwise. been trying very hard to follow pastor's message but that proves to be so difficult at this moment. little little things known as the days pass are making me feel more and more demoralised. dont deny that i am thinking of the best and quite often, been "dreaming" of the best scenario of this whole situation. been running to many places the past few days, doing my "research and homework". hopefully, i dont screw up. having no confidence. and what's worse, i just had a heated conversation. saw a verse at plaza sing just now. the verse is shown below. indeed, many things, many people are against me. pray that God will give me the strength against those who are against me.

"If God is for us, who can be against us?" - Romans 8:31

finally...

2007-05-10T01:19:00.000+08:00

finally managed to log onto my wireless network at home. been home since mon and has been trying to log on but have been unsuccessfully. yeap. finally moved home after 1 yr spent in hall. met up with jig today. he landed on sun morning at 730am. after 1 yr, finally got to meet up with him again. but this time, its going to be a short reunion. he'll be flying back in 3 weeks time. reunion time gets shorter and shorter year after year. dont even know if he will be back in spore after he gets his masters/phd. hopefully he willl be back in spore.
finally went to AIC at night. the view is totally different from going there in the day. didnt get what i wanted. was kind of a wasted trip. spent $17 in the process. was also very hungry. should have bought the chicken there as supper. was too disappointed that i didnt manage to get what i wanted from that trip and hence didnt thought of it. ended up eating bowl noodles now. yucks. sick of bowl/cup/instant noddles. oh well. i cant be really bothered now. just want something to fill my growling stomach. sadly, my disappointment cant be filled. guess only God can fill this disappointment now. alright. shall stop here. in the process of waiting now.

emotions

2007-05-07T13:22:00.000+08:00

sigh. how shall i start this post? i'm feeling so emotionally, mentally and physically drained now. been going through a tough battle the past week. lots of thinking, lots of negative thoughts even before anything is done, lots of fear and now, a feeling of miss, if such a phrase do exist. was talking to w.l. yest morning, ie, sun morning, till 2am, since its already mon at this time now. she gave the suggestion that i go there and give a surprise. but ultimately, we kind of decided that it was not a good idea after all. at bout 230am, i went off to bed to catch a short 2.5hr slp before waking up at 5am to get ready to go for service. during that short period of 2.5hr of slp, i dreamt that i went there. cant remember the whole dream but few scenes were vivid. was sms-ing a*r and replies were received. its a very weird dream as i was in front of a*r but we were sending sms. just before i woke up, i saw a*r typing and 2 of the words were "last words" as its already time to board. that's the end of the dream and i woke up. didnt know that subconsciously, i have actually been thinking about going there. i dont deny that i have seriously thought of really going there. thought that after deciding that its a bad idea, i will not be thinking bout it but yet my subconscious mind is thinking bout it all the while. sigh. and this is not the only time. throughout this past week, a*r appeared in my dreams for at least 3 or 4 nights, excluding yest's morning dream. have been thinking too much bout a*r and worrying too much in the day this past week. i dont know why i am thinking this way when i have not even said it yet. and this question was answered this morning. God told me why. He never fails to tell me answers whenever i am having trouble and problems. as Pastor Prince preached His words this morning, my mind is indeed the cause of all these emotions that i am having this past week. i have fallen into the devil's trap, letting my mind be the mastermind, literally, behind all these. felt much relieved and better after the service today. God's words are ever so timely, coming at a time when they are most needed. but though i felt more relieved, i still am having the feeling of emptiness as a*r is away. i have let my emotions run out of control this week. should have kept it under control, just like how i had kept it under control for the past close to 1 yr. because i have let it run wild, i am suffering for this action now. its really a painful feeling to be missing somebody, esp when he/she is away. i need peace and tranquility in me now. shall heed Pastor's advice and rem some verses about peace, peace of heart and mind. i need them badly now. can only pray for the best now.

"A sound heart is life to the body, but envy is rottenness to the bones." - Proverbs 14:30

sad.. sigh..

2007-05-06T01:33:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling extremely sad now. i dont know why i am feeling this way too. its like as if there is no hope or chance already but i dont even know what is the outcome yet. i feel so empty and weird now. a*r will be leaving tmr and suddenly i feel so lonely and so weird. also, a*r will be at a different place. that will prob mean that there will be much lesser chances that we will see each other. that was part of the reason why i am so sad. of course, there are other things that made me feel very troubled the past few days too. all the way till now, with the level building up each day. 1 of them is whether to say or not to say. the other is what to get. and most critical of all, what is the percentage? sigh. been thinking day in and day out since mon. the way i'm feeling now is like as if the percentage is going to zero. i dont want that to happen. no. not again Lord. please dont. ahhhhhhhh......................

25 minutes

2007-05-05T00:57:00.000+08:00

heard this nice song today. nice but sad lyrics. sigh. title is called 25 minutes. enjoy.

After some time I've finally made up my mind
she is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
to tell her I love her and I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done
I find her standing in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
but she's crying while she's saying this

Boy I've missed your kisses all the time
but this is twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far
boy I'm sorry you are twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again
wishing me back to the time when we were more than friends
But still I see her in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looked so happy in her wedding dress
but she cryed while she was saying this

Boy I've missed your kisses all the time
but this is twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far
boy I'm sorry you are twenty five minutes too late

Out in the streets places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
inside my head still I can hear the words she said

Boy I've missed your kisses all the time
but this is twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far
boy I'm sorry you are twenty five minutes too late

Boy I've missed your kisses all the time
but this is twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far
boy I'm sorry you are twenty five minutes too late

I can still hear her say.......

uncontrolled fire

2007-05-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

the fire within me is getting out of control. being thinking and thinking and thinking about it the past few days. i dont know what to do. i dont know how. i'm just feeling so very troubled by it. this is so very important to me. had been keeping this tiny flame under control for the past 1 year but now, it has grown out of control. i want to keep it under control again but day and night, it has been on my mind. i need to seek peace within my heart and mind. help me Lord. i entrust everything into Your hands. help me through this. i need Your help now..

random post

2007-05-04T01:39:00.000+08:00

just a random post, since i had not posted anything for a week or so, i think. well, holidays have been busy so far. packing n shifting stuff. not to mention tiring. this week had been an exciting week i will say. couple days ago i finally asked, after 1 year. met up with my cousin today for movie and dinner. watched a movie and was at great world city to recee some stuff yest with vincent. been a good week and a good start to a long awaited break. hopefully it will remain so. although, waiting.. waiting.. and more patient waiting.. excited.. anxious.. and a little scared.. not knowing what to do. no idea what is the best action to take.. and confused.. that is how i am feeling the past couple of days.. feeling is different recently. weird? not so i suppose. soon.. will not say much. and dont bother to try to figure out what i am trying to say. nothing should make any sense. oh well. better go.

Holidays

2007-04-27T05:37:00.000+08:00

finally its all over. the exams are over. the academic year is over. boy. this has been a really tiring year. right from the start of sem 1 last aug, i had never really had a good and proper rest even after the exams last sem, knowing that the real break and holidays will only come after the exams this sem. from taking 7 modules, to projects, to EVC, DND, and the various hall comms, scouts stuff etc, the end of the last paper yesterday evening(because its already fri, 27 april now) at 7pm, i can finally take a good break. although i am still taking the special term, at least, its not so hectic anymore and i can go wherever i want, do whatever i want. went to town after the paper. went to isetan supermarket, then to taka, to centrepoint cold storage and then to plaza sing carrefour to get a drink. feels sooooooo good that the exams are over and that my 3 months plus holidays has officially started 10.5 hours ago. going to enjoy myself, have a good break and relax all i want. and before i do that, i must start to clear out of my room. gosh. i have really so so so so so many things in my room. had just clearing up, say 40% of room and there is still so much more to go. well, i have another week to do so. at least i have more time than the rest to do so as some of my neighbours are still having their exams. all right. i better go catch some sleep. long day ahead later when the sun rises. good night people. =)

Exams...

2007-04-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

finished 2 papers today. the disgusting sounding "mechanics of thin-walled structures" in the morning and the ever shocking "compressible & unsteady flow" in the evening. both papers are difficult, esp the compressible & unsteady flow. as i had it as my msn nick, i was shocked by the normal and oblique shocks, hammered by the water hammer effect and surged by the pressure surges. sigh. to think that i studied and put in so much effort into this module. and in the end, to be so greatly demoralized. really hate exams. nobody likes them anyway, but i really suck at them. i liked studying. but yet, its the exams that always made me so disappointed, so demoralized that made me think if i should cont to study. as a matter of fact, i wanted to cont with my masters degree after graduating. but the exams and results are making me think twice if i should and even whether i can take masters. feel so sad. i love aerodynamics, fluid mechanics and associated stuff with aeronautical related things. but somehow, i cant score in these favourite topics and interest of mine in the exams. sigh.. well. i did my best and i shall leave God to do the rest. the papers are already over. no point feeling sad over it anymore. nothing can be changed. praying for a miracle now that i can get just a B grade for these modules.

"....... Do not sorrow, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." - Nehemiah 8:10

NDP memories

2007-04-22T19:31:00.000+08:00

was reading zhiling's blog just a moment ago and she was talking bout the ndp songs and even had a website where all the songs were. naturally, i went to the site and played the song "we will get there" by dick lee and stephanie sun. the moment i hear the song, a kind of trembling ran through my body as the memories start flooding back. heard this song many many times every week in 2002 when the mortar trainees from MCC had to do ndp duties there. i was part of it and at that time, i was so sick of it after hearing it so many times. but the song carried a different kind of feelings and emotions now. it brought back the memories of the pleasant as well as unpleasant memories of ndp 2002. all the weekends burnt because we had to go to the stadium, the torture of having to stand under the sun at the exit to raise the gate of the SCDF light strike vehicle to pass, having to do ushering with the ngee ann poly students for NE show for pri 5 students. come to 2003, i was once again involved in ndp. this time because my unit is doing it as a unit. this time round, we did something more. packing and sending of the goodies bags. gosh. i tell you, that is one bad experience. mindlessly puting items by items into the bags like a factory production line for hours each day, before packing them into boxes and sending them to the various pri schools for their NE shows. ndp itself, this time we were involved in crowd control within the stadium itself. of course, the advantage this time is that we get to watch the parade at least 3 times. once during the NE show, once during the preview and once on the actual day itself. tough it may be, it was fun. and of course, the best moment is during the flyby when the national flag is flown past the stadium. standing at attention and salution the flag, i felt so very proud to be a singaporean. the feeling of warmth and pride just flowed through my entire body each time the national flag is flown and the anthem sung.
this year's ndp will be on the floating platform at marina. wont have the chance to be part of ndp again as a soldier. will prob be at ndp this year as a scout. nope i am not marching. marched in ndp many years back when i was still in TK. once is enough. haha. alright.

this is the link of the song "we will get there" that brought back so many memories now : http://media.ndp.org.sg/mp3/2002%20-%20Sun%20Yan%20Zi%20-%20We%20Will%20Get%20There%20(Eng).mp3

and for the website of all the national day songs, here it is. thanks zhiling. and if you are reading this, do tag something k. phantom. haha.. http://www.ndp.org.sg/mp3.php

Mugging

2007-04-21T14:31:00.000+08:00

the feeling of staying in hall on sat and mug is such a weird feeling. sat are usually spent outside for the entire day for me. scouts in the morning, followed by shopping, walking around and relaxing outside in town, only coming back to hall late at night. its only during the exam period that i am forcing myself to stay in hall to study. this year, i had stayed in for only 1 sat, that is today. supposed to do so last sat but there was combined climbing for the scouts and guides and so last sat was spent outside again without touching my books. this period of time last year was a "memorable" one. most of the level 6 guys in D blk stayed in hall during the pre-exam period to study. there was company even on sat and i was not alone. enjoyed studying during that period last year. dinner was settled at the hawker centre opp ginza plaza on both sat. nope, we didnt go there to eat but i went there to buy dinner back for the level 6 guys. they claimed to be too lazy to go and since i NEED to take a break by having a change of environment for a while, i went there to buy dinner for myself and for everybody. after coming back, watched the show "adventures of wisely" while eating. haha. i need a break ok. and whats more, the female actress playing the role of bai su is very pretty. continued with studying after the show. last april's studying period was the best that i had in my 3 years in nus. last nov saw a change in the studying environment on sat too. was studying in the block lounge on all the sat, doing past year papers, reading notes etc. studied for the entire day till the night where i went to vivo to get dinner. vivo was newly opened not too long ago then and each time i went there to get dinner, i shopped and explored the place a bit, esp the candy shop "candy empire". that place is really a chocolate lover's heaven. haha. and also, shopping in the super huge Giant hypermarker. the feeling is very nice, to relax a bit after a whole day of studying. and now, for this sem, i am studying in my room. didnt go down to the lounge today. been doing past year papers of "compressible & unsteady flow" since 10am in the morning. taking my lunch break now so took some time off to blog a little. haha. tolerance and endurance reaching the dangerous red line. so have to take a break for a while before continuing with past year papers of "mechanics of thin-walled structures". felt like going out to bring down the "had enough and sick of it" level but had already went out the whole evening yest so i must stay in today to study. at least till the evening. thinking of doing what i did last sem. to study till the night before going to vivo to relax, shop and get dinner. yeap. think that's what i will do. since i really need to go out and town, which is my fav place is relatively further than vivo, i shall go to vivo tonight. been quite some time since i went there. wanted to go for quite some time but always didnt so i shall do so tonight. alright. my noodles are cooked. shall have my lunch before hitting the books again, followed by vivo. haha. enjoy the sat ppl.