Sunday, January 30, 2005
just finished talking to her on the phone. she sounded sleepy and her voice was so cute and so sweet. have not heard this cute voice of hers for a very long time and how i missed it. today got to hear it again. it felt as if today is going to be a nice and wonderful day, with only one exception, that things are not what they used to be like in the past, that sundays are no longer the same as sundays in the past. can still remember the first sunday i went out with her alone, to meet her and to go photocopy the map for the hike. that was 49 weeks ago and how time files. its been almost 1 year.. haiz...
was talking to her online yest also. told me that she was living in fear for me. didnt know that i caused her to live in fear. though her bday isnt here yet, she already had a bday wish and hope that i can fulfill it for her. i really hope that i can fulfill it this time, since i didnt make her bday wish last year come true. really feel very bad about it, that i cant even fulfill her wish. i'm so useless.. will i ever get things done and fulfilled? will i?