Wednesday, January 31, 2007
felt slightly better today. was in town, as usual, when i am not in a good mood, when i am troubled or when i am scared. it did help a bit. also went to chinatown just now. place was buzzling with life. lots of people shopping for cny stuff. the place looked so red and nice. many couples were there too, holding hands and shopping. that must have been such a nice and warm feeling. wished i could do that to with the one i like. holding hands and shopping. wish that i have someone whom i can love, someone whom i can say "i love you", "i miss you" etc to, someone to whom i can buy a bouquest of 99 roses on valentines day for again, someone whom i can go out with for meals, for meals, someone whom i can accompany and will accompany when i out, when i am in sch, when i am in tk. someone who is special, someone whom i can shower my love on, someone who can brighten up my dull life again. once had a crush on somebody about 5 to 6 months ago but somehow, the feeling kind of died down. is it because i had not tried hard enought to get to know her better and be closer to her or is it because that she is not the one God had intended for me. i dont know. only God has the answer. that special someone is probably still somewhere out there. where and when i will see her, only He knows. but i sure hope that i will find her soon. wont deny that i am so envious of the loving couples i see when i go out. looks like it gonna be another lonely 14 feb in 2 wks time.
Monday, January 29, 2007
never been so scared in my life before. 1st time that i was so scared that i was close to the brink of tears so many times today. please dont let anything happen, Lord. please dont. i dont know how am i going to hold on if anything happen. i'm willing to sacrifice anything and everything, in exchange of nothing happening. there are many things that i have not done. please do not take these unfulfilled things from me now.. please my Lord. i'm crying out to you. dont let my fears come true. no please.. no.. take mine if You wish... just mine alone..
Sunday, January 28, 2007
i am very scared and worried now. what should i do? i am so scared, so scared. dont know what to do. dont know what to say. cant think of anything else now. help...
Saturday, January 27, 2007
came back from the long and tiring weekend. totally tired out.. didnt sleep yest night because was driving them around the entire night till this morning. clocked a total of 3ookm the past 2 days. managed to get rid of that feeling, unconfidence and instability today. felt confident once again in driving after yesterday's night driving. was a fun night indeed. jianyang, nandeesh and yingcong came over to my room and waited while i charged my phone. went to prata shop to for supper and printed the certs. those kids are super crappy, crapping about tons and tons of rubbish and nonsense. went over to hq this morning again with jianyang to get the ventures empulatte but being the "cannot make it" shop it is, they are out of stock.. had made an empty trip in a way. dont have much to say already. just wanna say thank God that the checkpoints were completed safely and that my safety track record is once again clean. not only that, i have gained back my confidence of driving. alright. really very tired now. guess i shall go off now. goodnight.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
just came back from bedok 85. was having leaders meeting with tecktien and chinghao just now till about 9pm before heading to bedok 85 for supper, and in their case, dinner. drove there and so that is why i am able to go there and come back so quickly. dont know how to explain it, but i totally enjoyed tonight's meeting and the company. really such a weird weird feeling, one that i cant explain. like something bad is gonna happen, and that is why i am like enjoying tonight's company with them. and this is not good news. definitely not. because tomorrow night is going to be a long long night of driving. i mean i am already driving very very safely today. the 100km of milage today was completed without hitting past 90km/h even once. in the past, i used to speed, negotiate turns at high speed, flooring accelerator and then slamming the brakes and even thinking of being a racer, without feeling a single bit scared. but now, i am feeling a bit fearful of driving. even as i was driving earlier on, i was so "unsteady", so "scared" and so "unconfident" of my driving skills. i have NEVER ever felt this way when driving. never i stress again. not even when i am still learning to drive. but now, after driving for so much, i am actually having this feeling. i know it has to do with the accident 1 month ago. it has affected me.. seriously.. and now, i am having a bad feeling about tomorrow. really trying to shake off this feeling. especially after nandeesh asked if i am an experienced driver and jianyang said that i am an experienced dangerous driver. he said yijin told me so. i admit i was a bit dangerous in the past but those cases mentioned above are done deliberately. i totally stopped those today. the feelings still stayed even after i am driving very safely today. pray that i can overcome this feeling tomorrow. i need to be steady. i have to stay calm. nothing will go wrong.
please bless and protect us Lord, and let us complete the tasks we have and reach school safely on sat morning. let me overcome this fear and regain back my confidence of driving, Lord.
"Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them." - Mark 11:24
"The Lord is your keeper; The Lord is your shade at your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord shall preserve you from all evil; He shall reserve your soul. The Lord shall preserve your going out and your coming in. From this time forth, and even forevermore." - Psalms 121:5-8
"Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10
Saturday, January 20, 2007
saw mr edward tan at tangs at vivo city just now. he was my computing teacher in tj. a very very nice teacher. he looked so much younger now. remembered how we took advantage of his never get angry nature, playing lan games right in front of him when he is teaching. in the end, the whole class did badly for our computing in a level and because of the horribly bad results, i tink he had to leave tj, his appointment as hod of IT in tj. if it is true, i'm gonna feel bad forever for i was 1 of them who had indirectly caused him to leave tj. he is a really very nice teacher. helped us set up the server for our science council inter sec sch science quiz for 2 years, both time staying till late at night. saw him in tk some time ago. didnt manage to catch him before he left. glad that i got to see him today. wish him all the best. u rock, mr tan. =)
feeling slightly better today. just very slightly but nonetheless, it is still an improvement. it will get better i know. have faith in the Lord that the coming days will be better. yeap. they will definitely be. even if the days did not get better, i still have Him as my support and pillar of strength. but now, it is beginning to show. faith does triump indeed in trouble. =)
anyway, i was in tk today. saw pet and purplebell. talked to them for a short while. pet commented on my hair, saying tat its ugly and messy. hello, i just finished running when u saw me, of course looked messy lah. haha. other than seeing them in tk, nothing really eventful happened today. rather simple day. lectures, lectures and lectures in the day. zzzzz... went home for a short while in the late evening before heading to plaza sing. no mood to shop or walk around tonite. went to borders and browsed through some books before coming back to hall. saw this very cool bible dictionary there but very expensive.
received a message just now for the incident yest. i dont know but think things will change and be different from now on. guess there is just a gap and difference in thinking, resulting in what happened yest.
have to wake up early tomorrow again. 530am.. the same for sunday too.. weekends are always marked by 530am waking times. anyway, i sound real tired so i shall go catch some sleep, before i become grouchy tomorrow again. or should i say later. ha.. goodnight..
"Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us." - Romans 5:5
Friday, January 19, 2007
sigh. still feeling the same as the past few days. troubled. went to town to "de-stress", just like how i always did. tonight, however did not work. and my "favourite" supermarket - cold storage at centrepoint, is undergoing renovation now. the layout of the place and shelves has changed. walking around and shopping in there, looking at the stuff no longer gives me that nice, cosy feeling that i always had when i went there. that place always helped cheer me up whenever i go there when i am feeling down. now, it no longer does so. i miss the old layout. sigh.
well, at least there is still something a little comforting. chinese new year is around the corner and the supermarkers are already selling cny goodies. cny deco are also up for sale and so many places are looking red and the air filled with cny songs. cny is my next favourite festival, other than christmas. dont know if chinatown is ready for the festival. initially thought of asking the table to go to chinatown one of these days, but on 2nd thought now, i think it may not be such a good idea afterall, after a short unhappiness just now. shall not say what happened. just make me feel more troubled. shall take all the blame for what happened and it will end here. maybe i dont really fit in with the table after all. maybe i should opt out. sigh. cant care much either. right now, i just desire for some peace and quiet to myself, to run into His embrace. alright. that is my 3rd sigh in this entry. shall stop here now. signing off and out.
"My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." - Psalms 73:26
Thursday, January 18, 2007
just changed the song. this song depicts my situation now. i need a hiding place. i need to hide in Him now. been rather troubled lately. just this morning, during the break in lecture, i was looking at the offshore islands. looking at the sea, there was this sudden urge in me to want to leave this place, to go to some island, where there is no stress, no problems, and only the nice blue sea and mother nature. not that i am having a lot of problems again, but just that i guess the stress is getting to me again. firstly is due to my design project meetings. they have always been clashing with my lecture timings. i cant miss my lectures nor the meetings. but lectures still hold top priority and hence i missed the meetings and i am feeling rather bad. there are some minor problems here and there but still mangeable. sigh. i dont know. maybe i should relax a bit. rather tensed up these couple of days. feeling rather empty inside of me. as i was coming back to hall on the bus just now, i was listening to this exact song, and i feel so warm, a feeling of wanting to let it all out, cry out, a feeling of my troubles leaving me during that few minutes. i need Your hiding place Lord. let me hide in You, such that i can forget all my problems. help me overcome this difficult period Lord. help me.
"O LORD, God of my salvation, I have cried out day and night before You. Let my prayer come before You; Incline Your ear to my cry." - Psalms 88:1-2
Sunday, January 14, 2007
been a nice but tiring weekend.. sat, as usual, was taken up by scouting.. had the parade command practice till 5pm, before heading down to plaza singapura to meet up with table 44 people. had dinner at plaza sing before heading down to purple lights, an open plaza behing the irish pub. feel that its kinda stupid name to call a place, just because it has purple looking lights.. pretty lame isnt it? but anyway, played games there. so funny seeing xy looking so blur and lost when everybody knows the answer to the game and laughing away. ok. sounds very bad to laugh at her.. *zip* haha.. but heh.. irish pub is quite a nice and cosy pub i will say.. dont remember any smokers inside and the music is quite pleasant. not those loud heavy metal music.. maybe i should visit it sometime.. hee..
sunday was quite nicely spent today.. went for service in the morning. had lunch at home and went shopping after that.. been quite a long time since i spent sunday shopping.. past couple of months have always been coming back to hall after service to study. this will start again soon so that is why i am enjoying my sunday now while i am still "free". though it was raining the whole day, it didnt dampen my mood a single bit as i am really in the mood to shop, walk around and enjoy myself.. not even when i had to do so alone last minute.. guess its a good thing ultimately because its been once again quite some time since i spent time to myself, shopping leisurely at my own pace. i loved doing so, shopping in the supermarkets, looking at stuff, listening to chinese new year songs now. last month its christmas songs but now its cny songs. yeap. cny is around the corner again. my other favourite festival other than christmas. cny goodies are out and the deco are up too. everywhere is looking red for the festival. went to centrepoint after bugis and got myself a good deal there. hagaan daz ice cream is selling 2 scoops of ice cream for the price of 1. wow. got myself 2 scoops. yummy.. hadnt had ice cream for quite some time too. haha. headed down to taka, eating my yummy ice cream along the way.. that is what i call enjoyment and relaxation. hee.. had to cut the shopping short as i had to come back in time to watch " the day after tomorrow". a very nice show. and here i am, after the show has ended, writing this entry. will stop soon and go to bed.. nice weather to sleep. and also because tomorrow is a terribly horrible day for me.. monday blues literally.. have lessons all the way till 6pm. gosh.. guess i better go.. good night..
Thursday, January 11, 2007
what a great day it is today. received lots and lots of birthday wishes today. shortly after 12 midnight yesterday, fangxian sent the 1st sms. 3 sms came yesterday and the 1st sms this morning was from ms wong. throughout the day, sms and emails and e-cards came in. so touched that so many friends remembered my birthday. the best of all? jignesh called, all the way from america, to wish me a happy birthday. thanks jig. though it was a "bad" day for a birthday, with lessons from 9am to 6pm and a meeting soon at 11pm, all the birthday wishes kept my heart warm on this cold and rainy night. thanks a lot my friends. you people have made my day. =)
Sunday, January 07, 2007
had lunch with my close and good friends today at pearl river palace restaurant to celebrate my birthday. it was a very very great lunch. not because the food is very good and nice, but because of the company of my friends, few of whom stood by me and supported me through those dark times 2 years ago. people like tecktien, wenxiang, yijin, jiahao and minjie (both to a certain extent). esp tecktien with instances like bringing me to that talk in suntec which he attended and going to watch that fighter planes show at science centre. of course there are others too but i am not mentioning their names here. quite a few to list. thinking back on what i did and wanted to do 2 years ago in 2004, i felt so ashamed. there are people who cared about me and yet i think i have let them down and disappointed them, showing them the useless and utterly weakling side of me. i finally understood "there are people and friends who care about you" really means. just want to say thank you to those who supported and stood by me during those days. really glad that you people are here today. hope you had fun, just like i did. it has really been my honour to be able to spend this day with you people in presence. thank you once again my friends, for making this day special for me. "A friend loves at all times, And a brother is born for adversity." Prov 17:17
was too tired yest so only wrote about it today. as the title had already said it all, it was tk's sec 1 cca recruitment drive yest. as usual, the leaders started building a tower in the morning and it was one of the fastest, if not the fastest time, that we ever got a 3-storey tower up with 4.5 hours. was sun-burnt at the end of the day. haha. but it was soooooo fun.. been a long long time since i did pioneering, climbing up 3-storey structures to tie lashings. the adrenalin is wonderful.. anyway, for those who dont know, 3-storey means that the structure is as tall as a 3-storey building. our tower yest was as tall as level 3 of the technical block. i love tall structures. i love climbing and tying lashings on them. i love pioneering.. scouting rocks. woo hoo..
level 2 of our recruitment tower, going on to level 3.
at the top of the tower. =)
Saturday, January 06, 2007
was a very sad night tonight. 1st of all, it was the scouts. sigh. felt that i had failed to train them even after 3 long years, with this coming year the 4th. they spent the entire afternoon and only got 6 tripods done. and the tripods were not of quality standard either. their lashings are loose and messy. cancelled my plan for the afternoon to stay in tk to see how they are doing and at the end of it all, felt so miserable and sad that this is all that they did. was already feeling not very good and over at suntec, saw many students from tj and vj having their dinner cum gathering there after their orientation. that sight made me think of my orientation days and how i envied them. missed the fun we had then in year 1, although i am a person who is not very fond of orientation.
on the way back to hall, the driver of the bus was driving very fast since very little passengers boarded or alighted the bus. for no reason, the accident exactly 2 fridays ago came in to my mind and there is this little fear in me, a fear that the bus that i am on may be involved in an accident, judging from the speed of the bus. thank God the bus reached the terminal safely but as it passed the accident spot, i caught a glimpse of the traffic police notification for eye-witness board. the sign has been changed from "serious accident" to "fatal accident". i was totally shocked and speechless. the driver had died. i was so sad, so depressed i would say, that i kept asking why. why must this happen. why didnt the doctors at the hospital try harder to save her. why must such a tragic incident happen? she is only in her 20s and has a long way to go and now, a young life is gone. why must it be like this? why cant it be that she woke up from her coma and recovered? why must it end by her dying? why? so many questions and yet none can be answered. guess everything happen for a reason. whatever the reason is, only God will know. guess i will stop here tonight. been a very emotional night for me. i want to cry. i want to break down. i want to but i cant. i musn't. i need refuge from all these emotions now. God's refuge. i need calmness and peace in my heart now. at this very moment now.
"The LORD also will be a refuge for the oppressed, A refuge in times of trouble." - Psalms 9:9
Friday, January 05, 2007
went back to tj this afternoon. wanted to see some teachers before sch starts next mon. teachers like mr lee chee hong, ms faye tan, mr gan beng soon, ms betty tiew. but alas. didnt manage to see any of them at all. mr gan left for mj during dec. heard that mr kwan, my f maths teacher, is now the hod of maths in mjc. prob will go there to visit him tmr. dont know if he still remembers me. been 6 years since i left tj and he leaving for mj. glad that he's doing well in his career over there. anyway, managed to find mdm tan in The Hub today. always have no luck doing so in the so many times that i went back to tj. chatted with her for almost 1.5 hrs. was a very nice chat, talking bout the times when i was still in tj, 7 years ago when i was in year 1. but she is going to leave for moe hq in march. the next time i come back to tj, there will 1 less person that i can visit. sigh.. tj is now occupied by so many unfamiliar faces. most of the teachers that i know has either retired or left for another school. who knows, in another 2 years time, i prob will have nobody to visit anymore when i come back to tj. some may not even be in spore too. just like mr edwin lim and ms panai who went overseas to teach. coincidentally, both taught me GP in yr 1. really missed my jc teachers. they had left a deep impact in my life. still remembered mr kwan telling me this 1 day in the staff room when i approached him with a maths problem. he said that if i continue to work this hard, i will definitely do well in a levels. that really served as a great motivation for me. in fact, all my teachers in tj motivated me a lot. thanks a lot teachers. =)
tjc really occupied a rather significant place in my heart. as i saw the new year 1s going through their orientation today, memories flashed back to 7 years ago in 2000 when i was like them, going through orientation myself. was considering between tj and vj then and couldnt make up my mind which jc to go to. during the then principal, mr robert tan's tj intro talk in tk, he saw me after the talk and asked me which jc i am going to. told him that its either tj or vj and he said to me, come to tj. then during tj's open house, i was passing in front of the general office in tj when his car drove up to the front porch. he alighted, saw me, recognised me, and kept telling me to come to tj. that's the 2nd meeting with him and on the 3rd occasion which i cant rem what it is, i met him again and once again, he recognised me and told me to come to tj. togther with the reason that zhihao, yijin are coming to tj too and that i was also rather attracted by the rock wall in tj, i came to tj eventually. mr robert tan retired the year i entered tj and i never saw him again.
orientation in year 1 was one of the most vivid and fun memories i had of tj. can still remember the 1st day in tj when i am still blur and shy. can still rem my OGAs, irene, wenxiang, alvin but couldnt remember my OGL and another OGA. oops, so sorry. really had lots of fun during orientation then. sold sushi for our stall and the night before, we went to eugene's house beside st patrick's sch to prepare the ingredients for the sushi. our sushi sold like hotcakes and soon, we ran out of sushi rice. there are still demands for our sushi and so we had no choice but to approach the canteen stall to buy normal rice for our sushi. though its not the original japanese sushi rice, people still bought our sushi. and on the finale night on friday, we are supposed to have a campfire but it rained. the rain may have spoilt the fire from being lighted but it could never spoil our mood. we carried on the program in the hall, yelled, sang, played and cheered there, making so much noise that at some point, we seriously thought we will actually bring the whole hall down. luckily, the hall stood strong, even to this day. after the indoor campfire ended, we went down to the assembly ground where we sang, danced, cheered and yelled even more. when it all ended, my OG went opposite to have supper at one of the coffeeshops. supper having eneded, we made our way to the airport, where we stayed overnight, playing games and chatted. it was my 1st time spending the night outside that is not a camp or hike or anything related to scouting. it was such a great orientation. after that orientation week, our OG still met up for OG lunch and gatherings. still remebered a particular outing where we played forfeit games with awful chilli sauce as forfeit. it was at kenny rogers at tampines mall. still have the photos.. very valuable photos indeed. but sadly, the lunches and gatherings did not last long. soon we were too busy with our schoolwork that we no longer kept in contact as a OG, even when we were in tj. irene and wenxiang may be in my friendster list but we didnt contact each other for a long long time. sad..
but nonetheless, tj is still indeed a place full of fond memories. it is the place where i was called a tutorian. to those who do not understand, it refers to a person who keeps doing nothing but tutorial, someone from the planet tutorial and quoting u-wei, bleeds blue ink, red ink and black ink instead of blood. tj was also the place where i crashed the entire school server and network, causing the attendance system, late-comers system, library system and teachers signing-in system to be down. practically cause mayhem for the teachers that day, esp my computing teacher, mr edward tan (whose daughter is also in tk now), who has to fix everything as he is the hod for IT. so sorry mr tan. didnt mean to. it was also in tj that i studied till 10pm during prelims and a levels, before climbing the gate out to go home. that was the best, most memorable and fun studying time that i had in all my years of education. studied with bingxiong after sch ended in the science council room and going opposite for dinner. started doing this couple of weeks before prelims started and by the time prelims arrived, we had already tried almost every stall in the coffeeshop and hawker centre opposite tj. we were so sick of the food that we "rewarded" ourselves by going to bedok central for dinner on sat. yeap. we were in sch studying on sat and even on sun too. now you know how i got the nickname tutorian.
and thus, as i walked around tj today, looking at the various OGs in the orientation, smelled the very distinct smell of the aircon in The Hub, passed by the new and old com lab where i did my computing project and studied, the science council room which is no longer the science council room, the various classrooms where i once had hot and stuffy tutorials and the LTs where boring lectures are held, all the memories and visions started coming back as emotions welled up inside of me. many things have changed in tj since i grad 6 years ago in 2001. appearance and facilities of the school may have changed drastically but there is 1 thing that will never change. and that is that i will always be a TJcian, proud and always will be to be one. tj will always occupy a special place in my heart, never to be moved, always full of everlasting fond memories of that 2 years of my life.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
changed the song in my blog.. haha.. had a hard time looking for it.. loved the song.. its called The Lonely Shepherd. hadnt been blogging regularly the past week or so.. accumulating a few days entries into 1. very tired recently. i need strength from the Lord to keep me going. i need divine strength. help me my Lord, my Father. all the festive celebrations and parties and meet-ups are tiring. burnt a huge hole in my pocket too.. esp in dec.. reckoned i spent almost $800 - $1000 from dec till this sun. just on new years day (1 jan) alone, i spent $70. met up with wenxiang and zhihao after having lunch with ying, xy and mq at vivo. lunch cost me $10. dinner with wenxiang and zhihao at "tian tian huo guo" $27, gift $20 and cab fare back to hall another $12 and that makes $70 althogether. but it was a nice dinner and time on mon night. been a really long long time since the 3 of us met up. just the 3 of us. went to the esplanade. was so tired that i couldnt take it anymore and i knocked out on the floor near the merlion park without me knowing it. was 2am when we left the place and this explains why i had to take a cab back.
tue, 2 jan was spent rather uneventfully. i mean nothing significant happened. came down with a flu and sore throat. wanted to go to town to do some shopping but didnt really do so because i was feeling so tired and lethargic due to the flu. went home to watch movie and came back to hall after that.
as for 3 jan, ie, today, i was looking at the bidding points of CORS the whole morning and only went out in the afternoon. points are getting really very high. dont even know if i can get the modules i wanted. sigh.. just have to pray and place my faith in the Lord. everything is in His hands now. anyway, went to the airport in the evening to send kai chiat off just now after leaving hall. wont be seeing him for the next 5 months. when he is back, i will have finished my exams, finished yr 3 and will be having my 3 month break.. cant wait for that.. a well deserved break after a tiring whole academic year. going to go on holi, relax and have fun. and of all things, jignesh will be back in may too.. finally get to see that bugger again after close to 1 year. haha.. and of course, there is the 11-day, high key in camp training, aka, reservist in june.. but that is not too big of a concern now. reservist is quite fun actually. haha. know i am crazy saying this but it really is.. being with your platoon mates again. its a nice thought. alright.. i am really tired.. dead tired.. got to go catch some rest. its already past 2am.. gosh.. time really flies.. shall stop here then.. bye..
"Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10
Monday, January 01, 2007
had been a great new year celebration over the weekend. started off with a bbq at chingyang house on sat (30 dec). everybody from table 44, except alex, as usual, were present. though there was some unhappiness at the end of the bbq on sat, it was nonetheless a great bbq. and khia peng, dont worry. i understand. =)
yesterday, on new year eve, we went to the esplanade for the new year countdown and to watch the fireworks. 4 of us met up at chingyang place to swim in the evening 1st and boy, was the water cold or what. i was freezing and shivering the moment i entered the water. we swam for about an hour, before xy and i went for dinner and then met up with the rest of the group to proceed to city hall. as expected, it was super super crowded there. could hardly walk and squeeze our way through. couldnt even buy a drink because jason's marketplace at raffles city and giant at marina square was closed. had to turn to 7-eleven instead and i saw for the 1st time in my life the store personnel having to control the crowd and number of people entering the store to buy things. 12 midnight soon approaches and the fireworks display this year was fabulous and much better than that of last year. when it ended, we began the horrible task of squeezing with the thousands of people to the mrt station. by 1.25am, we finally made it to raffles place mrt station and took the train to paya lebar where we alighted and walked to fei fei wanton noodles for supper. supper having ended, 3 of us made our way down to east coast park where we stayed there till dawn. at 7.15am, we went to buy breakfast and made our way home. i had barely reached hall for 1 hr and here i am, blogging this entry. i am supposed to be sleeping now but since i am waiting for the clothes to be washed and am going out in 2hrs time. yeap i know it sounds crazy. out the whole night, came back, wash up and going out soon again. but thats me. i cant stay still indoors. i am a outdoor person. hence i reckon that its pointless to sleep as it will only make me feel more tired. and therefore here i am writing this entry. before i end off, i am going to list down some of my new year resolutions for 2007 and hopefully i will be able to fulfill them. 1 year later on this day, i will go through this list again (if i still remember. haha) and see how many i have actually achieved. here goes:
1. grow in the Lord
2. get better results
3. get a girlfriend
4. go to at least 1 of the places i listed that i want to go to in my profile
5. get more chances to drive
6. able to do the things i want to do
thats it for now. if anymore wishes or resolutions came to mind, i will post it down in my profile. Happy new year everybody. =)