Sunday, May 31, 2009
had a relaxed wkend this wk. sch holidays have finally started. looking forward to this hols. went for spa on fri evening with dear. body massage, hot and cold jacuzzi, sauna n steam bath. the spa session was shiok. enjoyed it.
went to food expo on sat afternoon. love such food fares. and as usual, spent a lot there. spent almost $50 there yest. .then went to equinox at swissotel on sat nite. the view of spore at 70th level is amazing. orchard rd looks so different from 70 storeys above the ground. dear n i ordered 2 cocktails n a mocktail. sat there n drink n relax for 2.5hrs before leaving at ard 1120pm. how i wish every weekend can be as relaxing. sigh..
Friday, May 22, 2009
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feeling so damn super sian.. so many things to do on my to-do list. but no mood or energy or drive to do it. need to start serious training for my ippt soon. been running much more regularly for the past 3 weeks. supposed to run this morning. but woke up late n ended up not running. damn.. feeling guilty now. this sucks.. this feeling really is so shitty. arg.. do i have enough time to train? i hope so. have to be more determined. hols are coming soon so i guess i will have more time to train more regularly. but right now, i am feeling so SIAN!!! ahhhhhh. help.. its a fri but why am i feeling this way? do i have time tonight to go out? viewing flat tonight. arg. shall see how things turn out. have to go to sch soon. damn. this sucks. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Thursday, May 14, 2009
finally.. i did what i wanted to do long long long long time ago but always do not have the time to. walk around in orchard, shop, relax, destress till late, way past 11. was at orchard on mon nite but didnt stay till late. tonight i really stayed till late, although not late enough as compared to the good old nus days when i took the last bus back to hall at 12 midnight. but tonight was good enough. robinsons was having a members sale again and was open till 1030pm. shopped there till it close. before that, i was shopping at cold storage at centrepoint, again till it closes at 10pm. from there went to robinsons. after robinsons closed at 1030, i started walking towards heeren. was tinking of going back but the stress took the better of me.. i need to destrss. badly... so instead of heading to the car, i headed towards cineleisure. being a wed nite, the place was closed relatively early. so i just went in and stayed there, looking at the place for a while before leaving towards taka square. its finally empty tonite. the audi fashion show took up the entire square on mon nite and i couldnt sit there and enjoy the night. tonight was different. the place is finally free. i sat at the edge of the fountain, watching ppl heading home. it was a windy night tonight. the sky was orangish red and cloudy. the leaves are swaying. it was a really beautiful night, just like how i had remembered it to be in the good old days. i just sat there, looked up at the trees, the sky and clouds. there was no moon tonight but it was still a beautiful sight. i must have been sitting there, staring at the sky for a full 15-20 min before i got up and walked to the centre of the square, right in front of the main enterance of ngee ann city. standing there in the middle of the square, in front of the huge building, i looked up at the sky again. i felt so small, so fragile. at that moment, i felt so at ease with the surroundings, the building, the wind, the sky. it was a wonderful wonderful feeling. felt so light and bouyant. felt no problems and stress. my mind was a complete and perfect cohesion with the beautiful orangish cloudy sky with the nice wind blowing on a quiet night. i could have stayed there the whole night but i cant. continued walking down the pavement after, towards wheelock place. the whole place will be so livened up with xmas deco in less than 6 months time. couldnt wait for xmas to come again. walking down to wheelock, looking at the huge icon that is gg to open soon, the huge outdoor tv outside shaw house, memories of the good old relaxed days came back again. fought to hold back emotions again, i crossed the road to shaw, took the underpass, came out from mariott, headed down towards heeren to the car. that ended a rare enjoyment that i yearned for in months.. when will be the next time that i get to enjoy this again? 3 wks time i hope.
Saturday, May 09, 2009
missing the good old days. damn hell how much i miss them. the days in nus. how i wish i can turn back time and return to those days as a student again. do not like working life 1 bit. not a single twiny weeny bit at all. feeling so damn burnt out again today. i thought its all over and i can finally take a short break, take my mind away from work, but walah, yest n today pop out 2 new assignments. there goes my wish of a short break, to regain my sanity and to prevent my burnt out further.
once again, i was in the lib till 7 plus pm just now, trying to finish up the new tasks. as i attempt doing so, the more tension i feel building up inside me. the lib used to be so crowed with people 2-3 weeks ago that its difficult to find an empty table. yet tonight, it was just me, a single living soul in the whole left wing of the lib. so eerily quiet and lonely. not that i am afraid of ghosts, but its the emptiness that is taking a nerve on my mind.
took dear's advice in the end and stopped doing everything and went ahead to town. boy, how i miss those days in nus when i can go to town almost 3 times a week. 3 times out of 5 in the weekdays. as i drove, i thought about those carefree times. drove down the exact route of 1 of the ways i used to take to go to town. bus service 106 along holland road. as i drove along this road, i thought of the days when i will take this bus to head to town. i did not deliberately take this route, but its so coincidentally coincident that pie was jammed from clementi ave 6 onwards so i had to exit there and go along commonwealth ave west, ending up taking the holland road route to town. like always, the feeling of being in town is so relaxing. the moment i turn into tanglin road, passing tanglin mall, which always have the snow avalanche and snow sessions during christmas, i felt so much better. instantly, i felt as if a huge rock has been lifted off me.
after i parked, i jus walked down the entire orchard road, from heeren to tangs, going down to the basement where all the household appliances and woks are sold. there are no wok demo tonight. can still rem how i used to watch the promoter demonstrate the wonders of the woks by demonstrating how to fry, bake, and make pop corn. that was how i know how to make caramel sweet popcorn at home. haha. from tangs basement, i took the orchard underpass to shaw house, going to isetan supermarket doing my favourite thing - shopping in supermarkets, looking at the many many and endless kinds of products on sale. looking at the prices, the fruits and veg, the ham and bacon, the juices and dairy products, the dry goods and can food etc. the list goes on and on. i could have spend the entire night there but i do not have the luxury of doing so anymore, unfortunately. i could have easily done so 1-2 years back, but not now. not anymore.
from isetan, i headed to taka, going down to the basement, shopping at cold storage. this is 1 of the 2 cold storage left in the orchard road region. used to have 3, but the building which used to be where the current og orchard is now has been torn down. the cold storage there has a unique layout. its at the basement, but the entire supermarket is in a circular shape. the enterance is on the left and the exit on the right. just imagine a horsehoe and you got the layout of that cold storage. anyway, this was during sec sch days, so now you know how long it has been. from taka, i went on to wisma atria, walking up to the 2nd level, exiting at the exit leading to the taxi stand. from there, i walked along the road, crossed the road to the bus stop. this was the bus stop where i always took one of the last bus from. 65 to vivo, changing to 10, 30 or 142 back to hall. or 106 to buona vista, changing 95 back to hall. as i stood there, waiting for no particular bus for almost 20 minutes, i thought of the nights just 1-2 years ago where i was waiting at the exact bus stop for the bus to take me back to hall everytime i came to town during a weekday. there is no chance for me to do the same thing or retake the same bus along the same route back to hall anymore. all i can do is reminiscence those wonderful days. there are still plenty for me to talk about but i do not have the time to do so. how i wish i have. maybe i had taken too many a breaks during my nus days. maybe that is the reason why i am feeling so lousy about working life, about not having enough breaks now. maybe, the reasons are plenty. whatever this maybe may be, 1 thing is for sure. i sure freaking miss the nus carefree hall and student life.