Thursday, January 20, 2005
really very nice to be able to talk to u on the phone again just now. zhen de hao xiang nian your voice. dont know if u know it or not but i was very happy when i was talking tou you just now. i just felt so delighted that you called. know that this wont happen very often and it prob will be one of the very rare times but just this time is enough for me already. dont know what's installed for me tomorrow so i dont wish to think so far ahead either. all i know is that i am happy today n its good enough for me. hopefully i can end each day happy so that if tomorrow indeed dont arrive for me, at least i know i was happy today n very happy once before when i was with you. really wish that you can come n visit me one more time though. really miss you visiting me a lot. was thinking of next sat, on the 29th, after the scout meeting, you come over to n then we do work n study together just like last time. because that day my hall has a hall production in nus itself n will really like to invite you to it. so if you agree to go, after meeting can come over, study le then go for dinner and then go to the production. its a play and will start t 730pm. will ask you this again tomorrow. hope you can go for it.. hmm.... next thing...
didnt know how exactly to phrase myself just now but wanted to say that i want to accompany you when u go for your service. regretted not accompanying you on 4dec last year when you were going for your service alone. now you have your friends and members to accompany you all the time le. seriously wanted to say i wanted to follow you that time de but all because of my stupid guy's ego, i didnt open my stupid mouth to say so and then now then come n regret. like you said, its all in the past le so i cant do anything also. i cant turn back the clock. if i could, i will not do all the wrong things which i did when we were together. dont know how many more turns of the clock is left for me. just hope that i can spend a great n memorable time with you this coming fri and that each day i'm still around, i can get to at least talk to you or sms you n keep in contact with you. know that seeing you will be difficult already. prob only chance is on sat during meetings but dont know how many more times i can see you somemore.. alright then.. dont sleep too late k.. do try to take care of yourself. u always say u will but in the end, u still get injuried. 2nd time you slip n fall in 1 month. n 2nd time you even injuried your back somemore.. so worried for you.. cant be there to take care of you anymore n dont know if i ever will again. if i dont, do take care of yourself. hurts me a lot to say this but hope that u can find someone who can take care of you better than i did if i dont have the chance to take care of you anymore. if i can or if you allow me to, i definitely will try my best to do it better than last time. that's all i have to say for now. good night n sweetdreams my dear. you will always be my dearest to me, even if i am not to you anymore. you will always be the 1 and only girl whom i love the most in my entire life so far. other than you, i wont be loving any other girl anymore. i will take this love for you with me wherever i go, wherever i end up. that's my promise n vow to you.. nitez....
As the days and nights pass slowly by,
All my tears I just can't hide.
Looking into the clear dark sky,
Will you think of me tonight?
Now as you sleep in your nice warm bed,
Here I am still wide awake.
And oh how badly my heart ached,
When i recalled the vows made.
More than 1 month ever since you left,
It still seems like a bad dream.
All the good times we once shared,
Exist just as memories.
Take care of you from now on I can't,
Know you don't want to either.
Sorry for the bad job done,
Didn't mean to cause you hurt or harm.
Though a loving couple no longer,
My only love you'll still be.
Eternally my dearest,
'Cause you are and always will.