Monday, January 31, 2005
today's another boring and horrible day.. firstly, forgot to take chopsticks for lunch. good thing managed to get a fork if not have to skip lunch le. next, topic of discussion was rejected by the tutor. so irritating and pissed.. then was late for the home visit again. good thing the adults didnt say anything this time.. haiz.. n the worst thing is, got so giddy and felt so faint during the visits. dont even know why also.. sux sux sux.. but at least there is 1 gd thing that happened today. i got to talk to her on the phone again after lessons. that's the best thing today.. to be able to talk to her.
talking to her online in msn right now. was talking bout her baking cookies on valentine's day.. the cookies she baked are really very nice.. haiz.. valentines' day.. in exactly 2 weeks time. it was on valentine's day last yr that i got to know her name.. yah i know its very silly. seen her for 1 month le then got to know her name. what a stupid guy.. also got to know her hp num on valentine's day last yr as well when she called me.. tot that we can spend valentine's day together but guess i was wrong.. things are just so unexpected in life.. guess valentine's day will be spent alone again this year.
feeling rather sad right now. she said she forgot what she wished for for her birthday wish last year. guess she wants to move on and wanted to forget the past. dont blame her. i gave her so much hurt, sorrow and trouble last year. its all my fault.. only got myself to blame... only myself..