Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Wake up? haha.... yah i know u still think that i'm still not awake yet. really wish i will really never wake up forever n leave all this misery behind.. i didnt do anything wrong. dont know y u must treat me this way n so harshly. my friend still told me just now not to do anything that will make u guilty but i was thinking, will u even feel guilty now. seems to me like u will not. i'm also not forcing u to read this blog. if u dont want to then so be it. i'm in no position to force u also. y must u reply so hurtingly? u dont want to read is also ok. i will just continue to write if what i wished n prayed for dont come true, which most likely wont. this is the only place now where i can pour out all my sorrows n write what i feel n think. i dont have to explain my actions to u also right, as u have said, so i will write what i am going through. the most is just left unread thats all. whats the big deal? it doesnt mean it definitely has to be read. nothing else matters to me anymore. good night..