Saturday, January 22, 2005
was so happy when u said this online just now: "hey next time we go out we go take neoprintS!~ hahaZ.. long time neva take le". when i asked you is as a group or alone u said alone also can. then dont know why u got so angry suddenly, refusing to answer my calls, reply my sms n answer my question. n when you saw the necklaces, you were like no expression like that. i agree that what you said is right. i everything also dont dare de. last time like that, now also like that. and today after missing the chance of trying to hold your hand, if next time really have the chance to go out with you again, you very likely will be more 'cautious' le. so many things i want to tell you and do but just didnt have the courage to. guess whatever i do now you also will have no reaction, just like how you have no reaction when i gave you the surprise. on the contary, you felt angry n said wanted to pay me back for the jewellery i help u buy. it was meant as a gift for you, not helping you to buy. why cant you accept my gifts? is it because that they from me that they become so 'di jian' that you cant accept them? know that whatever i do or whatever i surprise i had for you you also prob wont be touched de. know that other people and maybe even you will think that i'm so stupid and silly n such a big fool, knowing that prob you wont be touched and stuff but yet i still continue to try doing so and try to win you back. but thats me. though knowing what the outcome may be but yet still carry on allowing myself to plunge deeper and deeper. not much energy or ideas or ways left also already. will not stop trying to win you back until the day i drop or when i decide to drop. prob you will be angry when you read this again. so sorry... i really am.. hope you can forgive me.... goodnight....