Wednesday, February 02, 2005
another bad day today. overslept and didnt get to sms her in the morning. and she didnt send me any sms also.. have not heard from her the entire day. really missed her so much so much and tomorrow will be the 49th day since we broke up. kept recalling about the past today. just being in school, in clementi along made me think of her. can still remember so very clearly how we went to hike out the routes for the combined hike in clementi last year on 12th march. she was laughing at the 'speech' then and i can still see so vividly how cute and sweet she looked when she was laughing at me at that time. that image will forever be imprinted in my mind. it was such a memorable time hiking with her then and on the 14th march, where we were in bukit timah. just outside the lecture theatre, i can already see the building of the clubhouse which we passed by in our hike. how we joked about and me going crazy that time and us going to newton to have our dinner. so many things flashed past in my mind today and all of them are images of the past. meeting her on sat morning at her house bus stop to go to school together for her extra lessons and for my meeting. sometimes she will make breakfast for me, sometimes we will just go to the bakery to buy some bread for breakfast. those days are gone and i wont get to eat the breakfast she made again. her breakfast is really very nice, very delicious. she is a very good cook. but i got no fu qi to eat the meals she cooked anymore, the cookies she baked and the sandwich she make. no chance to wait for her anymore at her house bus stop on sat morning. even waiting for her on sat morning is such a nice and pleasant thing but that is not possible anymore. just being at the aia bus stop brings back so much memories. memories of all the sat nights in the past where i will stop there after sending her home after going out during the day. all the times we went to the gym, going to bedok for durian and a bite after school, the times we went to study together at liang court all flashed past my mind today. cant help thinking of all the things she said in the past too, that she will not give me up, all the sweet things and promises. although they never become true, at least she did say them once and left fond memories for me forever. haiz.. just thought of so many things today. is it beacuse i missed her too much that these images appeared in my mind? or is it a bad sign? hope that her call or sms will come in soon. i got no mood to do anything now..