Thursday, February 24, 2005
haha.. didnt know what to say either.. now i'm just a person who hurt you with my words.. maybe that's what i have always been doing, hurting and hurting and hurting you even more. probably that's one of the reason why you left me i guess.. think its really time i keep certain things to myself, just like you instead of sharing my every secrets with you.. not that i dont want to but it will only hurt you everytime i tell you everything.. the phrase 'no secrets between us' doesnt apply anymore i guess.. its something of the past and maybe even in the past, it didnt happen totally.. think you also had some secrets or things which you didnt tell me either.. so i dont suppose you will tell me everything now when you didnt even when we were together.. guess today is a very good example.. dont blame you.. i understand.. you want your freedom.. i've no rights to know everything and you dont have to tell me everything.. so i will do the same also, so that you wont be hurt or worry about me anymore.. my life doesnt belong to you nor anybody anymore, unlike in the past.. anything that happen to me now is just my own problem, me and myself only.. you take care of yourself.. looking forward to having dinner with you tomorrow.. hope i can get to watch movie with you on saturday.. goodnight my dear.. know this entry will prob hurt you again but its going to be the last timw i'm hurting you with my words, like you said this morning.. so sorry once again.. sweetdreams and sleep tight.. you must be tired after your conference.. hope you have a good rest tonight.. cya tomorrow.. will be thinking of you always, no matter where i am.. love you my dear.. in the past, now, in the future and forever will...