Monday, February 14, 2005
i'm really such an idiot to have written those entries to disappoint and hurt her again and again.. hate myself so much so much.. today was supposed to be a happy day for her, where she was touched by what i gave her and did.. but now because of all these stupid entries, those feelings are gone, replaced by disappointment.. why must i write those entries? maybe i shouldnt write anymore.. the things i wrote only hurt her more.. havent i hurt her enough? i'm such a big jerk.. really so sorry sharon.. i didnt mean it.. by the time u see this entry, it will probably be a few days later already.. really very sorry sweetheart.. sorry to spoil your happy day.. forgive me please...