Sunday, February 20, 2005
just finished talking to her on the phone.. after this, dont think will be able to contact her for quite some time already till she reach home or something.. miss her so much so much.. dont know how to describe what i am feeling now also.. its like i'm going to explode from all the built up pressure already..
miss you so badly sharon... i dont how to or what to say either.. want to spend more time with you but its not possible.. want to talk to you but there is so little time and i have so much to want to tell you.. somehow, when i talk to you, i just cant seem to say what i want to say. maybe its because i want to let you talk and hear your voice. i feel so at ease whenever i hear your voice.. on the surface i seem ok but inside me, its not. i know all u are is treating me as a friend now.. though i dont want to but i have no choice. have to 'accept' it but this 'pressure' is building up and its eating me up and killing me bit by bit everyday.. maybe one day it will explode.. cant take you off my mind sharon.. i miss you very much and i love you.. always..
loving you always....