Sunday, February 06, 2005
what a bad afternoon.. seldom have the chance to talk to her on sundays and this afternoon got to talk to her but i had to spoil it and make her angry. why am i so stupid? cant even catch or understand a simple joke. i must be the most stupid guy on earth. dont understand why i am so stupid. ah... stupid stupid stupid!!
was also doing sociology assignment with my group members today. went to far east to observe the people there. supposed to observe the actions and behaviour of the teenage couples there. scenes of the times i was there with her, doing all the little things the couples surfaced and appeared before my eyes again. used to go to far east together to shop for the clothes and scandals. then went to plaza singapura to continue the observation there. was at the foodcourt where we used to eat last time to do up the draft. that place is so filled with memories. still remembered the spinach noodles which we ate together. and the cinema where we watched our first movie. a pity the neoprint machine which i took my first neoprint with her is no longer there anymore. its gone, gone like my relationship with her.
still waiting for her sms or call to come in. guess she is watching tv or doing her work. wanted to call her house but i cant do so. her house number will be a number which i wont get to call anymore, unlike in the past.. haiz.. my friend is right. now that we are just friends, i shouldnt be expecting her to reply my sms or call everytime. things are not the same anymore.. i have to accept it. she's happy with what she is, what she has and what she is doing now.. no matter how badly it hurts me, i can only give her support now. she's not my girlfriend anymore.. no longer so, but just a friend.......................................