Thursday, March 24, 2005
start of another day where i must stick to what i tell myself i must do. have not been really doing what i intended to but its ok. help will definitely be given to me, unknowingly by the 'helper'. one day closer to that grand day. such a painful and torturous journey to it. going to appreciate it so much when it comes. so much pain and effort has been put in. at least, for this, i know i will get what i deserved for the efforts i put in. yes.. definitely.. it wont be like all the other times, when i put in so much effort and sacrificed so much and in the end, get nothing in return except sadness, pain and disappointment. this time, it's different. i will definitely get back the things i deserve. i will gain back all that i've lost this time. i will and i know it. 100% sure that i will, unlike the past when i'm so unsure. as for those that i owe and done for me, i will try to return the favour. so much has been done for me and yet i've done so little back. going to start doing so now so that i wont owe anything anymore. this is going to be the turning point and my final point. the ultimate goal...