Monday, March 21, 2005
why did i reject her offer to get the titbits for me? what's wrong with me? already very glad when she wanted to but didnt want her to waste her money on me. haiz.. and why did i hurt her again? did i really shout? maybe i did. it's all my fault. from now on, every time i hurt her, i will hurt myself myself back.. i will....
doing what i'm doing now is so painful, so difficult. it's a life worse than death. will rather die than do this but i must endure.. it's here very soon. i must make it to the day. i must, i definitely must....