Thursday, April 21, 2005
how long more can i endure this before i breakdown totally? take it easy? move on? all these are so easily said than done. why must love be a crime? what's wrong with loving somebody and wanting to be with her forever? what in the world is wrong with this that i had to be punished like this? what wrong have i done? it's such a painful torture to be dreaming of her everynight, waking up to the fact that she is not there anymore. the thought of dreaming of her tearing just rips my heart apart. and now, she wont even want to talk to me anymore. how i wish to see her but when will i be able to or will i ever be able to again? why cant you spare me of this torture, take me away so that i wont have to wake up everyday to this misery. i do not want such a life. what have i done to deserve such a horrible fate? what?