Friday, April 22, 2005
living in misery day after day, night after night. what joy is there in leading such a life? it's just living hell. everything she said in the past are all not real. what always will be there for me if i need somebody to talk to or need somebody for support. now she tell me dont want me to rely on her for emotional support and be dependent on her. she never kept her word or promises. she always break them and say i'm blaming her. this is what i get in return for being nice to her. everything to her are just mistakes. big mistakes which she is regretting now. and to atone for those mistakes, i am left to misery and pain. being nice never pays. all the while it never did. good people die first and suffer the most. zuo ren nan, zuo hao ren gen nan. promises? is there such a thing in the first place?