Tuesday, April 19, 2005
she really didnt sms me anymore. not yest nite, not this morning. lost the person i love, and now i lost my closest friend. what joy is there in life anymore? after knowing her for 16 months, she's gone from my life just like that. no more sms from her, no more morning chats with her, no more encouragements from her, no more seeing of her, no more going out with her, no more of everything. she's been my everything and my life for the past 1 year and now, she's totally gone from my life. how am i going to accept this pain? all that i have worked for and done for all this time has gone down the drain. not only will i not be able to be with her and spend my life with her, i wont even be able to contact her, chat with her, or see her once a week anymore. how am i going to take it easy? that is an answer i would like to know too. how do i find the mental strength to endure this and the emotional will to suppress my feelings? this mental and emotional strength is too much to endure. oh god, whoever you may be, if you are real, take away my suffering please. help me. i'm begging you. please... life without her is not life anymore. it's worse than death to live this way without her. please. i'm begging you, praying to you, whatever it is. help me.........