Monday, April 25, 2005
suddenly thought of the last time we went cycling together in pasir ris that saturday, 27 nov 2004. the thought send tears to my eyes and prangs of spasms to my heart again, literally. that was the last time i got to hold her close to me as we sat at the rock, watching the sea. can still remember the walk out to the main road, that long and quiet road, before running to chase after the bus outside downtown east. that was going to be the last saturday i am going to spend with her. this walk down memory lane is so painful. literally painful physically, not only emotionally. how long more before the pain is beyond my threshold, beyond what can be endured? wonders, questions and queries... all unanswerable...............