Wednesday, May 04, 2005
going back to tk yesterday at 12pm brought back so much memories. its been 1 year since but it seems and felt like yesterday. the feeling of excitement and anticipation felt whenever i go back to tk last year is still so fresh in my heart. although she is no longer in the school anymore, somehow i still felt the same feeling yesterday as how i felt last year whenever i went back. how i will stay in the canteen to wait and wait for her for her to come out during recess, sometimes not coming out for recess. the rush of feelings when the sec 4 students start coming out, trying to look out for her in the crowd is still there. and how i will go back with her, waiting for the bus at the 30 bus stop. stopping at the sing post centre to go to the food court there for lunch. on this date last year, we went there for lunch for the 1st time. still remembered how she leaned on me while waiting for our 'ban mian' because she was tired. that warm feeling is so special, knowing that i can be a pillar of support for her. how she blocked my eyes from the sun when going down the escalator made me feel like i'm the luckiest guy on earth at that time. although all these actions will no longer be carried out anymore, i can still remember them very clearly, like it only happened yesterday although its been 1 year already. now all these will just exist as nice memories only, probably never to happen again. haiz. how i miss those days when she is still in tk, even those days before we were even together. those were the nicest days of my life. really such a pity everything turned out this way. guess its all fated. fate always has a cruel twist. and for me, its such a cruel twist and ending.