Thursday, June 16, 2005
really dont know what to do now. to tell her or not to tell her? so many things have gone wrong and badly this past few months. felt so miserable and lost. totally dont feel like doing anything at all. trying everyday not to miss her or think of her but i cant. somehow, i will still miss her so much so much. even when i am not thinking of her, something must appear to remind me of her. saw someone wearing the same pink 3/4 sleeve shirt, exactly the same as hers on mon while in malaysia. and so many times, passed by people who are using the same perfume as her. why is heaven playing such a prank on me? not only have i failed in my love, my life, i failed in my results too. did so badly again this semester. i did put in effort but why is it that everytime i did so badly. why am i so stupid, such a failure? will anything ever be right for me? will there be a hope? i really wonder. how i wish i can see her or talk to her once more. to have a nice good talk with her... will my wish come true? god help me..........................