Thursday, July 07, 2005
dont know if i should feel happy or sad. is it a chance given by heaven? can i call it a chance? saw her just now at tampines while waiting for a friend but dont think she saw me. so happy to see her just now. saw her for the 1st time in almost 3 months. wanted so much to go say hello to her but yet dont have the courage to do so. dont know how she will react also. in the end, can only see her from afar. wondered if she is ok as she looks so tired. and again, cant do so either. really hope she is alright. worried for her yet i cant do anything, except to pray for her that she is alright. dont know if i will ever get to see her face to face again, as a friend, and not from a distance away. to be only able to see her from a distance away and unable to go say hello is so painful. when will this pain go away? or will it?