Sunday, July 03, 2005
its now almost 3am in the morning. though i am very tired, i cant fall asleep. kept thinking of her. again and again. thought about how she is now, if she is fine, how did she do for her exams etc. wanted to ask her so many things but yet i cant at all. this is so torturing, unable to do something which you want to do. even watching tv reminds me of her. some of the scenes in the show are exactly what we used to do before. the guy kissing the gal, holding hands, playing around etc. and the music of the shows are so sad, making me even more emotional and want to cry. worse still, even the book i'm reading is also describing how loving the couple is, the wife hugging the husband. i'm really going crazy already. the whole world and everything seems to be reminding me of the things and times we had in the past and kept making me think and miss her. how am i going to survive like that? i feel that i'm reaching my limit very soon. just a matter of time before eveything is proven and confirmed. then, all will just be a memory. god, help me please.. i'm at my wits end..