Thursday, December 15, 2005
14 dec.. the last day i went to watch a movie with you, go out with you as a couple. still remembered that day exactly 1 year ago so clearly, as if it was yesterday. been so tired, thinking of you, missing of you and wondering what you are doing. so near yet so far away from you. have been hanging out near the place the past few days, wanting to be 'near' you. seeing the people shopping, eating, laughing and enjoying themselves everywhere i go made me miss you even more. can only stay and hang around these places, doing nothing but just walking about, from 1 end to the other, from 1 place to the other, from 1 department to the other, from 1 shopping centre to the other, to just want to be close by you mindfully but not physically. so tired in the mind and in the heart. trying to make myself physically tired but didnt succeed. that very day is coming soon. very soon. as it draws nearer, i draw nearer to breaking down again. thats all i can say at this moment. goodnight and have a good rest. sweetdreams. can only say these to you in here. wish i can sms you these again, but will i ever have the chance to? only you have the answer. goodnight..