Friday, December 23, 2005
22 dec. 1 year since the day you stopped me. will never forget that night last year. how you came back to look for me to stop me. how we talked that night. how i talked to you on the afternoon of 22 dec after my christmas carolling at nuh, you asking me to help you get christmas cards. how i went to paragon to get them for you, even secretly swapping the cards from all the boxes so that you will have a variety of designs. thought of it warms my heart and pierces it at the same time. tomorrow will be the christmas carolling again but you wont be there to talk to me after it ends, you wont be asking me to help you get christmas cards after it ends. how i wish you can be reading this blog. how i wish you can give me a call or sms. but that seems so impossible. 3 more days and it will be christmas. know that i wont be spending christmas eve with you anymore, wont be getting any card from you anymore, wont be getting any christmas gift from you anymore. this feeling is really very miserable but yet i cant do anything either. and the results just came out today. cap score dropped again. dont even have honours now. nothing seems to be going right for me. really such a failure, never able to achieve anything. how i wish at this moment now you can be there to say some comforting words and encouragement. but guess you must be sleeping now already. will my christmas wish this christmas be fulfilled? or will it just be another distant dream and wish, as far as the stars in the sky above? may you have a dream as beautiful as the stars above tonight. the beautiful stars that always make me think of you. in the past and now. goodnight, sharon. sleep tight.