Thursday, December 22, 2005
another day has just passed like that. another day of thinking of you, of wanting so badly to call you or sms you. what were you doing today? how have you been? these are questions which i do not have answers to. waking up everyday with these questions, thinking of y ou and wondering how to spend the day is so meaningless but yet i cant escape these feelings? already at a desperate end, with nowhere, no one, and nothing to turn to. standing in the middle of nowhere, dont know which way to go now. really wish to see you for just one more time. tomorrow will be the release of results. dont know what will happen after tomorrow after the release of results. will it add on to more desperation? will you be there to asy a few comforting words? only your words have effect now but they are probably something i wont get to hear. have already run out of tears, literally. tears can no longer flow when i cry almost everyday. cant make myself not cry. i just lose control. probably you may think that i am a weakling but that's the way i am. over you, i cant control myself anymore and you know that, dont you? what can i do? what can i say? guess only you know the answer. sweetdreams.