Monday, December 26, 2005
was wishing the whole day that there will be a miracle, that you will at the last minute, invite me to your christmas service but you didnt. guess you have really forsaken me. christmas is supposed to be a happy holiday but i was not happy this christmas. tried my best to be happy but still cant really be truly happy. really wish to be able to celebrate it with you but know its highly impossible and i was indeed not proven wrong. will next christmas be different? will there be a next christmas? 1 year is such a long time. so long, so torturing a wait. what will happen in 1 year's time? will things get better or will they get worse like how they did this year? can they get any worse? really cant imagine, cant feel it anymore. hope you had a great christmas. i'm sure you must have. merry christmas once again. goodnight and sweetdreams.