Sunday, January 15, 2006
woke up early today and went to dhoby ghaut for 1st aid course. the cool morning air, the crowdless scene is something i have not experienced for quite some time. thought of the very first time we went out for movie together. was a sun morning at dhoby ghaut also. throughout sat and today, i was thinking of you and the times we spent together so much. know i should try not to but i just cant help it. esp on sat nite, passing by the different places in orchard, inside the various shopping centres, scenes of the past just appeared again. uncontrollably, as i thought and recalled those days, i just smiled to myself, right in public. people must have thought that i am insane. standing in the middle of orchard road, looking upwards at the sky, seeing the bright moon and the fast moving clouds with the cool wind blowing and tons of people walking past me, i felt such a sense of peacefulness. how badly i wished that you were by my side at that moment. such a nice and beautiful night but yet i am feeling so depressed inside my heart. even at this very moment as i am typing this, i am trying to fight off my inner emotions. its just a difficult fight and a losing battle. hopefully, God will help me in this battle. need His help now. really do....