Friday, December 22, 2006
was kinda tired today. didnt have enough sleep the past few days. then there is the video and photoshoot for the pageants this afternoon. its finally carried out today after trying so desperately and hard for 2 weeks to contact eusoffworks to get the videocam. shooting for B and D blk wnet smoothly. only A, C and E blks are left. ACE.. coincidence? hmm.. hopefully. lots of stuff to do for dnd. formal wear photoshoot. in studio? outside studio? pageant bash and dnd venue? are we still gonna to view mariott hotel? guy-gal games to meet SDU requirements for sponsorship? so many things to settle. i havent even had time to read my book which i had just borrowed. Ghost Force by Patrick Robinson. i am a big fan of his books. read every single of his submarine books. this is his latest book and i think a new one is gonna come out soon. you ppl reading this blog should read his books too. loved admiral morgan in the book. he is so very cool. the way he answered the phone, the way he obliterated his enemies. a real patriot for the country and for the navy indeed. anybody who had the tiniest nerve to even mess with the USA or threaten its safety and survival will receive the full hammering from this "Big Man", as his subordinates and fellow admirals and generals in the white house called him. whoever who dared to try will bear the horrible consequences. wished i could be like him. haha. dream on dom.. dream on..
anyway, went out to meet jiahao and jiahao after video and photoshoot is done and i was late. after jiahao left, jiahao n i went to marina square to bowl. it was good company. reached back hall around 1130pm and was online chatting with table 44 ppl till not long ago when i decided to come here to pen down my thoughts. didnt want to blog today actually but wasnt feeling good so came here to pour it all out.
is it really so difficult to forgive a person if that person has hurt you very deeply once? i knew i had hurt somebody with my actions. not once, not twice, but many times. looking back, i realised how selfish and stupid i was. but i had truly regretted my actions and just wanted to ask for forgiveness. i am not requesting for anything more. guess i will never be able to receive it from the looks of it. had only myself to blame for this. for losing a friend forever. think i cant use the word "friend" anymore i suppose. this will always be a valuable lesson learnt. to think of the possible consequences before you act, for once it is done, it can never be undone again. the damage caused will never be able to be repaired. wished the clock could be turned back so that i could stop those actions. but it couldnt and so i had to live with this i suppose.
ok.. eyes can hardly open. will stop here for now. goodnight.
"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you". - Matthew 6.14