Friday, January 19, 2007
sigh. still feeling the same as the past few days. troubled. went to town to "de-stress", just like how i always did. tonight, however did not work. and my "favourite" supermarket - cold storage at centrepoint, is undergoing renovation now. the layout of the place and shelves has changed. walking around and shopping in there, looking at the stuff no longer gives me that nice, cosy feeling that i always had when i went there. that place always helped cheer me up whenever i go there when i am feeling down. now, it no longer does so. i miss the old layout. sigh.
well, at least there is still something a little comforting. chinese new year is around the corner and the supermarkers are already selling cny goodies. cny deco are also up for sale and so many places are looking red and the air filled with cny songs. cny is my next favourite festival, other than christmas. dont know if chinatown is ready for the festival. initially thought of asking the table to go to chinatown one of these days, but on 2nd thought now, i think it may not be such a good idea afterall, after a short unhappiness just now. shall not say what happened. just make me feel more troubled. shall take all the blame for what happened and it will end here. maybe i dont really fit in with the table after all. maybe i should opt out. sigh. cant care much either. right now, i just desire for some peace and quiet to myself, to run into His embrace. alright. that is my 3rd sigh in this entry. shall stop here now. signing off and out.
"My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." - Psalms 73:26