Wednesday, January 31, 2007
felt slightly better today. was in town, as usual, when i am not in a good mood, when i am troubled or when i am scared. it did help a bit. also went to chinatown just now. place was buzzling with life. lots of people shopping for cny stuff. the place looked so red and nice. many couples were there too, holding hands and shopping. that must have been such a nice and warm feeling. wished i could do that to with the one i like. holding hands and shopping. wish that i have someone whom i can love, someone whom i can say "i love you", "i miss you" etc to, someone to whom i can buy a bouquest of 99 roses on valentines day for again, someone whom i can go out with for meals, for meals, someone whom i can accompany and will accompany when i out, when i am in sch, when i am in tk. someone who is special, someone whom i can shower my love on, someone who can brighten up my dull life again. once had a crush on somebody about 5 to 6 months ago but somehow, the feeling kind of died down. is it because i had not tried hard enought to get to know her better and be closer to her or is it because that she is not the one God had intended for me. i dont know. only God has the answer. that special someone is probably still somewhere out there. where and when i will see her, only He knows. but i sure hope that i will find her soon. wont deny that i am so envious of the loving couples i see when i go out. looks like it gonna be another lonely 14 feb in 2 wks time.