Sunday, May 06, 2007
i'm feeling extremely sad now. i dont know why i am feeling this way too. its like as if there is no hope or chance already but i dont even know what is the outcome yet. i feel so empty and weird now. a*r will be leaving tmr and suddenly i feel so lonely and so weird. also, a*r will be at a different place. that will prob mean that there will be much lesser chances that we will see each other. that was part of the reason why i am so sad. of course, there are other things that made me feel very troubled the past few days too. all the way till now, with the level building up each day. 1 of them is whether to say or not to say. the other is what to get. and most critical of all, what is the percentage? sigh. been thinking day in and day out since mon. the way i'm feeling now is like as if the percentage is going to zero. i dont want that to happen. no. not again Lord. please dont. ahhhhhhhh......................