Saturday, July 07, 2007
feeling many many kinds of emotions now, as the title of this entry said. what should i start with? alright. start with the bad ones first. The stranger sang a theme ok. now for the good emo. saw the ndp flypass again today. gosh. seeing all the ushers, the soldiers and their security pass, the hive of activity at the entire marina bay area brings back all the memories when i was like one of them. the whole place is so lively, so full of life, which i simply love love and love even more. i still have my ndp security pass from both the years which we did ndp duties. miss those days so very much. how i wish i can have a chance to don the uniform and be on duty at ndp again. i am so very glad and thankful that i got to do ndp duties for 2 years, giving me such fond memories, something which i may never get to experience again. alrite. enough of emo for today.
bad emo 1
i am beginning to feel disheartened about what i am doing. nothing seems to be going right. everything seems to be going against my direction of movement. am i too unreasonable or have i set too high a standard n expect too much? i dont know. i feel so lost now. a little boat in the middle of the ocean in a storm. that is how i am feeling now. i feel like stopping, feel like quitting. should i or should i not? i got to think very seriously about this question.
bad emo 2
suddenly feel like listening to sad sad songs today. dont know wadid listen to a few. one of them is called Life In Mono. here's how the lyrics go.
from someone elses dream
the leaves began to fall
and no one spoke at all
but I cant seem to recall
when you came along
Ingenue
Ingenue
I just dont know what to do
The tree-lined avenue
begins to fade from view
drowning past regrets
in tea and cigarettes
but I cant seem to forget
when you came along
Ingenue
Ingenue
I just dont know what to do
Ingenue
I just dont know what to do