Monday, August 27, 2007
dont know if i should blog about this. want to pen it down but yet dont want it to be so obvious. how should i go bout it? oh well. lets just say i am not sure if i am able to show my gratitute towards the thing that i love to do, my passion, my interest. would really like to but its not my choice anymore. know that things were not done as well as it should have been, but its not really what i wanted. know that i shouldnt push the blame away but its really true that i was "restricted" and that what i had in mind wasnt put to plan. things were quite messy from within. wanted to clear things up but chance was not given. dont know if i will be given another 2nd chance to correct things. can only hope for the best.
"as you have believed, so let it be done for you" - Matthew 8:13
Thursday, August 23, 2007
shall start of with saying that i am in kind of a dilemma now. shall i continue or not to continue? on 1 hand i do not wish to continue the struggle but yet on the other hand, i indeed do not feel like giving up like this. sigh. shall see the outcome this sat before making my final decision.
Monday, August 20, 2007
as the title suggests, this entry is about the reflections i had of the past 3 months of the holidays. i will say its a very nice and rather well spent holidays. it was my last holidays so kinda treasured it a lot. but alas, i had to be down with dengue for 2 wks and another 1 month for complete recovery. but like i had mentioned in a previous entry, the dengue made me realise and reinstated how important real and true friends are. i was really touched by those who came to visit me during my stay in sgh. after my discharge, the rest of the holidays are spent doing the things that i like and going to genting, my favourite holiday destination. though its jus a short 3 days trip with my parents, i really enjoyed myself there. looking forward to the end of year holidays where i will go there with my whole family. hehe. right after my genting trip, i am back into hall, where i had a really wonderful orientation. never have i enjoyed orientation so much before. used to dislike orientations. but this time round, i enjoyed myself and loved my og. woo hoo.. udeiya rocks. my og is really a bunch of happening people. thanks to them, i had a really fun, enjoyable and memorable orientation to remember for my last year in hall and in nus.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
we won! we won! we won won WON!!! Eusoff has the best float in Rag 2007. woo hoo.. go Eusoff.. i am so very happy and excited now, together with the many many raggers who put in 3 months of hard work to get this show today going. the tears of joy on so many eusoffians' face when the result was announced, the screaming and cheering hysterical eusoffians just showed how much we valued this award. finally, we won it back again. the marvel of the engineering of the mechanism, the colours, the design of the float, no doubt we are the BEST! enough said. i am a bit at a loss of words. let the pictures do the talking and show why eusoff is the BEST float..
our float. the space shuttle.
the exhaust of the space shuttle and the movable pistons
the explorer. this "car" was made entirely by eusoffians, out of various materials. talented arent they.. =)
the wings of the space shuttle.
King Edward VII hall's float. the stadium.
the soccer boot and the ball.
the scoreboard and miscellaneous items.
huge coin..
the spotlights of the stadium, made up of CDs
grandstand..
sheares hall's cinderella pumpkin carriage.. the modernised and mechanised version.
opening of the pumpkin carriage.
raffles hall's magical schoolbus.. nice engine details..
the front of the magical schoolbus
kent ridge hall's plane crash on an island. sounds like LOST
tail of the crashed plane beside the waterfall
temasek hall's wayang kulit
the screen and the puppets and the pottery..Thursday, August 09, 2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNznhoW-XaE
had nussu flag day yest. was very very tiring but fun. flagged from 7am to 10pm. yeap. thats a whole 15 hours. but of course, with a couple of hours of rest in between. i'm not a freak of nature like lawyer said i am. remember that lawyer.. i also need a rest. and i am also not cruel nor a slave driver. u had your rest at the designated time, as promised. was fun flagging with lawyer, though i had to endure the things she said. gosh. a lawyer indeed. could never win her in an debate nor argument. on-job-training before she was even "qualified". anyway, that's beside the point. point is it feels great to be flagging for eusoff, to be committed to eusoff, to make eusoff my 1st priority now. had been making that place the 1st priority over hall, over nus, over the place where i should have been for the past 3 years. i am not going to make the same mistake this time. sacrificed so much and all i get is this crap, even having to ans to that ******* now regarding the things i do. you have no right to question me, and i dont have to answer to you. argg... felt so much like scolding out vulgarities in here. cant be bothered much with what they do with that place anymore. really really very tired. rather spend my energy for the place where i should be spending on, to the people/person whom i should care for, than getting myself pissed with the people in that place. all i will do there now is what i should be doing. nothing more, nothing less. eusoff is where i pledge my loyalty n commitment to, where i will devote my time and energy now. no more that place. n come to think of it, that place is where my very bad pains originated from. 3 yrs ago and now again with another one. alright. shall not talk bout that place anymore. had my awakening and very clear with what i should be doing now, where and whom i should devote my time to now. Eusoff, to the fore!!!
Saturday, August 04, 2007
i am feeling very very very high now. not high due to alcohol but high and excited. high and proud. high and emo. Eusoff is the cause of all these. why? just ended our orientation week tonight, with a closing ceremony and a performance by the Eusoff band. the atmosphere and level of ecstasy is just simply overwhelming. been a very wonderful orientation week with my og Udeiya. the closing ceremony is just so wonderfully done. to me, its also very touching and heartwarming. ever since Eusoff accepted me in about 1 year plus ago, i had pledged my loyalty to Eusoff and tonight, i felt so proud of Eusoff, so proud of our band, so proud of our EHOC. the way all of us jumped and clapped and cheered and sang with the band, the level of enthusiasm of everybody present, the feeling is just beyond description. wanted so much to tell everybody how great Eusoff is. had a sense of belonging, a feeling this is where i truly belong, what i really ought to do, be and devote myself, instead of being at that place which is now causing me quite a bit of unhappiness, the place where i am dealing with people, or kids, who are not at the same level of maturity, who wont understand things that people of our "generation" like. for instance this whole entire orientation week. they will prob not understand and think its lame etc. maybe i should start hanging out more with people of my standing, instead of sacrificing so much time and ultimately to be betrayed. maybe i should spend less time in that now unhappy place. alright. enough of that unhappy place of betrayers. coming tue is the nussu flag day. next sat will be the rag day. looking forward to it. saw the preview just now. the rag and the dance. boy. the dance is so full of energy, so full of life, so full of power. again, this is something "they" wont understand or appreciate even if i had told them how great our dancers and dance are. looking at their dance club and dances, ha, i wanted to laugh myself to death. seeing how excited they are in their concerts, screaming their lungs out, i just gave myself that "ha" grin, laughing at their ignorance. wait till they see what real dances are. they think that their dance club is so wonderful but they are just frogs living in a well. cant blame them also, can i. they are but little kids. hahahahaha. anyway, yah.. our dance is really cool. whoever seeing it will definitely move their bodies to the beat and the moves. i can vouch for that. proud of Eusoff but sadly, this will be my last year here. sigh. well, all good things must come to an end. what's more important is that i had enjoyed myself. i can proudly say "i love Eusoff". go Udeiya, go Eusoff!!!
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Udeiya. thats the name of my tribe, aka, my og name for orientation. been a great 3 days. 2 more days to come. the freshies have been fun, great and wonderful. of cos, not forgetting, talented. had lots of fun the past 3 days with them. been tiring too. hardly have ideas on what to write in this entry so this will prob be a very short 1. it may be tiring but its fun fun and more fun all the way. just earlier on we had our eusoff challenge, a run around campus. wanted to run with my og but i had to cover safety as 1st aider so i had to stay in the vehicle. nonetheless, managed to join them near the ending 200m or so to the finishing point. love my og. love my freshies. 2 more days to go. 2 more days of fun before sch starts. been a really great orientation this year. a success so far i will say. Eusoff rocks. Udeiya rocks rocks rocks. GO UDEIYA!! we are the best. SA SA EHHHHH....