Tuesday, February 01, 2005
just woke up from a horrible nightmare. why are the nightmares getting from bad to worse? only took a 15min nap from 1030 to 1045 and within this 15min, i can still have such a bad nightmare. this is the worst nightmare i ever had in my entire life. was so afraid. was crying in the nightmare and i woke up, realised that i was also tearing in the real world. my pillow was soaked and wet from my tears. never have i ever been so afraid of my dreams before. this is the 1st time and i was so terrified. kept praying that this nightmare will not come true and nothing will happen. if something did happen, i wont want to live anymore either. touchwood but if anything did happen, which i sincerely prayed that it will not, i will still do all the taking care all my life no matter what, till the day i breathe my last. sincerely pray that nothing will happen and that this is just a dream, never to come true......
