Saturday, May 09, 2009
missing the good old days. damn hell how much i miss them. the days in nus. how i wish i can turn back time and return to those days as a student again. do not like working life 1 bit. not a single twiny weeny bit at all. feeling so damn burnt out again today. i thought its all over and i can finally take a short break, take my mind away from work, but walah, yest n today pop out 2 new assignments. there goes my wish of a short break, to regain my sanity and to prevent my burnt out further.
once again, i was in the lib till 7 plus pm just now, trying to finish up the new tasks. as i attempt doing so, the more tension i feel building up inside me. the lib used to be so crowed with people 2-3 weeks ago that its difficult to find an empty table. yet tonight, it was just me, a single living soul in the whole left wing of the lib. so eerily quiet and lonely. not that i am afraid of ghosts, but its the emptiness that is taking a nerve on my mind.
took dear's advice in the end and stopped doing everything and went ahead to town. boy, how i miss those days in nus when i can go to town almost 3 times a week. 3 times out of 5 in the weekdays. as i drove, i thought about those carefree times. drove down the exact route of 1 of the ways i used to take to go to town. bus service 106 along holland road. as i drove along this road, i thought of the days when i will take this bus to head to town. i did not deliberately take this route, but its so coincidentally coincident that pie was jammed from clementi ave 6 onwards so i had to exit there and go along commonwealth ave west, ending up taking the holland road route to town. like always, the feeling of being in town is so relaxing. the moment i turn into tanglin road, passing tanglin mall, which always have the snow avalanche and snow sessions during christmas, i felt so much better. instantly, i felt as if a huge rock has been lifted off me.
after i parked, i jus walked down the entire orchard road, from heeren to tangs, going down to the basement where all the household appliances and woks are sold. there are no wok demo tonight. can still rem how i used to watch the promoter demonstrate the wonders of the woks by demonstrating how to fry, bake, and make pop corn. that was how i know how to make caramel sweet popcorn at home. haha. from tangs basement, i took the orchard underpass to shaw house, going to isetan supermarket doing my favourite thing - shopping in supermarkets, looking at the many many and endless kinds of products on sale. looking at the prices, the fruits and veg, the ham and bacon, the juices and dairy products, the dry goods and can food etc. the list goes on and on. i could have spend the entire night there but i do not have the luxury of doing so anymore, unfortunately. i could have easily done so 1-2 years back, but not now. not anymore.
from isetan, i headed to taka, going down to the basement, shopping at cold storage. this is 1 of the 2 cold storage left in the orchard road region. used to have 3, but the building which used to be where the current og orchard is now has been torn down. the cold storage there has a unique layout. its at the basement, but the entire supermarket is in a circular shape. the enterance is on the left and the exit on the right. just imagine a horsehoe and you got the layout of that cold storage. anyway, this was during sec sch days, so now you know how long it has been. from taka, i went on to wisma atria, walking up to the 2nd level, exiting at the exit leading to the taxi stand. from there, i walked along the road, crossed the road to the bus stop. this was the bus stop where i always took one of the last bus from. 65 to vivo, changing to 10, 30 or 142 back to hall. or 106 to buona vista, changing 95 back to hall. as i stood there, waiting for no particular bus for almost 20 minutes, i thought of the nights just 1-2 years ago where i was waiting at the exact bus stop for the bus to take me back to hall everytime i came to town during a weekday. there is no chance for me to do the same thing or retake the same bus along the same route back to hall anymore. all i can do is reminiscence those wonderful days. there are still plenty for me to talk about but i do not have the time to do so. how i wish i have. maybe i had taken too many a breaks during my nus days. maybe that is the reason why i am feeling so lousy about working life, about not having enough breaks now. maybe, the reasons are plenty. whatever this maybe may be, 1 thing is for sure. i sure freaking miss the nus carefree hall and student life.
